"and who told you to help me? why are you doing this?"
"maybe because there's no point scoring 100 if you're not here to see me beat you."
⊹ ࣪ ˖ lee hwayoung has nothing better to do than to beat yang jungwon, who's been her enemy for as long as she...
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trigger warnings: suicidal thoughts, mentions of de@th
You chew on your nails anxiously.
It's not possible. There's no way the Yang Jungwon – student council president, class vice president and academic weapon – could let this pass. This was an absolutely shattering hit to his streak of continuous 100s and 99s, and it was especially perturbing to your spirit that the boy, who had suffered such a huge loss, was not bothered at all by this defeat.
"Yah Jisun-ah, isn't it shocking how he's not affected at all? Like how the fuck can the Class No. 1 fail a simple Add Maths test and not give a damn about it?" You huff in great annoyance.
Jisun rolls her eyes in defiance of your argument. "Since when did you care so much about how he reacts to his failures? Does it make you happy to see others fail?"
"I mean, only if it's Yang. But isn't it crazy? He must have become a stone or something-"
"Lee Hwayoung! Why is this our current topic of discussion when it's the least of your fucking worries? Who cares?" Jisun lashes.
You blink. Jisun usually doesn't raise her voice, especially when it's you.
"Sorry Jisun."
It is quiet like the silence after a fresh snowfall, immense and intense. Your mouth is sealed shut, and even though you try to express your apologies, nothing comes out. You heave in a trembling breath.
"He hurt me, okay? He made me feel so fucking horrible about myself when he'd said all those shitty things to me and I don't want the same to happen to you so I think it's best you stop bringing him up. I felt like dying while I tried to be friends with him." Jisun blurts, feeling frustrated.
Jisun had once tried to amend your relationship with Jungwon, befriending him after being assigned as partners for a Biology practical and encouraging him to approach you more often. Yang Jungwon used to strike you as a caring person. And somehow, your heart strings used to pull at the thought of finally coming to terms with the boy you've been rivalling with for as long as you've been in school. Jisun had been a great help, too, being understanding of both your wishes and respecting your boundaries as much as she did Jungwon.
Her futile efforts, however, only led her to experience what she's coined 'the worst three months of her life'. In those three months, she's probably pondered over the thought of her self worth and self esteem over hundreds of times. He's told her how worthless she is, how he will never listen to her, and went even to the point of telling her to kill herself if she ever tries to convince him to talk to you.
And for that, you hate him even more. For downplaying others, for making them feel worthless, and especially for hurting your best friend. You rub your eyes in disappointment.
How could you be so careless?
"I'm really sorry Jisun I am, I love you and I won-"
"Forget it, Hwa, I love you too. I'm not gonna let that jerk affect me because my tears don't need to be wasted on him.
