Fifty Shades of Ruby

Chapter 8

Ruby's POV

"Vanessa thank you but I don't need.. your help anymore samaya and I need to really work shit out." I say and Vanessa nodded

"I understand I just hope it all goes well for you both. sincerely" Vanessa said pausing "you guys play alot of games with eachother there shouldnt be that if your gonna have a healthy realationship."

I sighed shaking my head "your right and maybe we do play alot of back and fourth games but we will get better trust me I'm at least trying.." I say samaya was in the car she blew the horn and I turned to Vanessa "Umm I gotta go. now so um I'll see you soon. tomorrow actually" I say turning and getting into the car With samaya I pulled out the drive way and into the main road towards our house.

The tension in the car built and I just wanted to break it so I spoke.

"samaya." I say shocked to turned to me.

"yeah"she said in a whispered voice.

"How..how was your day?" I asked trying to make small talk.

"it was. .um OK."she said and I smiled litely.

"Good." I say and she nods her head at me.

"what about you Ruby?"she said pausing and looking at me this time "how was Vanessa yesterday after you left my house. aft-"

"You Told ME to leave.."I pause cutting her off "after that? well she was there.. something I yet to see from you.." I say looking at her then back on the road.

"really?.you telling me I haven't been there But do you allow me to your always closed off or 'not in the Mood to talk' But you say I NEVER be there yeah right how cant you Not let me in But let some.. some Dumb Bitch in and I'm not in yet? how do you think I feel and how do you expect me to react to it all? I tried so badly to.. to try Ruby you won't let me in and I'm trying really I am and I love you slot But your Gonna hurt me if I don't do what I'm doing now because your 50 shades of Crazy Secrets and Hurt that you have Not once tried to let me get an once of it." samaya snaps at me and Im just stunned.

"you wanna be there?" I pause. glancing at her and then back on the road.

"yeah please. " she said softly looking at me.

"Well.. lasted year I had this girl and she wanted to know me so badly so badly that she would do anything to get me to... to talk to her about my life" I started the memories of Phoebe coming to mind. "her name was phoebe I told her about how.. I wanted to hurt her because.. to be honest I really did want to hurt her.. I wanted to hurt her badly like.. physical mental emotional.... Phoebe tried telling me I didn't.. and that I loved her and that I was just saying this to... push her away" I said letting the tears run down my face " I Kept telling her No I wasn't just telling her to push her away I was being serious and she got out the car.. not wanting to hear any more of our conversation of my words.. she was hurt at the time and there was nothing I could do to stop her from leaving" I Felt My eyes water at what I was about to tell samaya right now. "as soon as she got in the middle of the road... a truck came.."I paused tears now Falling from my Eyes I was balling now and we were outside samayas house. "she got hit by the truck.. samaya and I.. there was nothing I could do about it.. I couldn't stop her I couldnt tell her No I let her go I should've.. I shoul-"

"No Ruby. it wasn't your fault you can't tell when something bad is going to happen."samaya was now on my lap my head on her chest as I cried.

"Shh baby it's okay it's okay.. shes in a better place now."samaya cooed running her hands threw my hair.

I leaned up to grabb samayas face in my hands I kissed her passionately Pushing my tounge into her mouth.

It Began to get heated and I Grabbed her thigh that wasnt on me and pulled it on me so she startled me.

The Night Was Amazing just us making Love in my car even for the first time in my life.. I finally feel like everything was going to be alright...