Rules To A Ruler

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The next day......

I woke up with a headache and my body was painful. It must have been all the partying and running. I get up from bed, take a shower, got dressed and made my way downstairs. I got to the kitchen and my mother was cleaning up.

Mom: Xhelsy it's 12pm and your telling me you just woke up?
Me: I was tired from all the studying we did last night.( making something to eat)
Mom: Speaking of your friends, your father has something to tell us.
Me: Is everything okay?
Mom: I also don't know but join us in his home office when you're done.
Me: okay.

She wakes out and I continue to eat a sandwich that I had made for myself. I wonder what my father wants to tell me about. Did one of them get into trouble or maybe didn't come back home?, I have to find out. I finish eating and wash the dishes I used then made my way to the office. I knock and wait for an answer, then I walk in. He was sitting behind his desk and mother was sitting on the couch.

Father: I wonder who's going to marry my daughter.
Me: it's too early for that.
Mom: it's never early.
Me: is this why you called me?
Father: What happened yesterday night?
Me: I don't understand.
Father: Joshua Conveen and Jagger James were found at a midnight club that sold drugs and alcohol.
Me: Are they okay?, should we go see them at their house?, are they at the hospital, can we go? (concerned)
Father: Unfortunately Jagger was shot and died.
Me: ww..... wait, what? ( Finding it hard to believe)
Father: We are sorry baby.
Me: This can't be true, if this a joke then you got me.
Mom: I'm sorry baby.

She comes to hug me and I let it all out. Jagger........he was my friend, he understood me, he cared about me, he made my worst days better and now his dead. I shouldn't have left them at the club, we should have ran away together but I was selfish and left them. I move away from the hug and walk out of the office. I get to my room, put on some shoes, grab my car keys and walk out of the house. I get into my car and my hands were shacking so much but I needed to see Jagger or Amelia or Joshua . Just one of them because I know Jagger is so strong, he wouldn't just die like that. I drove to the hospital and asked the nurse for the room any one of them was staying and she took me to Joshua. He was sitting with Amelia and he looked so bad. His eye was purple, his hand looked broken, he was just looking bad. I stop looking from the door and walk in and they both look at me.

Me: Jagger.....he um, he..(breaking down)
Amelia: Yeah, his gone (trying not to cry)
Joshua: we just have to try and move on.
Me: move on?, he was shot and found on the ground by himself dead when we could have done something and you tell me to move on?
Joshua: yes Xhelsy, we need to move on and plan the next move.
Me: so we're just going to throw away 13 years of friendship and move on, is that what you're saying?
Amelia: he doesn't mean it like that.
Me: well it sounds like he doesn't care that Jagger just died.
Joshua: he got us into this so he was going to die sooner.
Amelia: that's too much Josh.
Joshua: And he meant as much to us as he meant to you but I feel like feelings where now getting involved. Did you f*ck with Jagger?, are you crying because you won't be getting some good f*ckin from daddy Jagger?, I bet Chris can do better.

I walk up to him and slap him. He looks me dead in the eye and I also did the same.

Me: I wish it was you that died and not him.
Amelia: Xhelsy.

I walk out of the room and went to the waiting area. I set down for the longest time thinking about what I could have done to prevent this. Then I decided to go home and maybe rest. It didn't take me time to get home. I just parked my car and walked in the house where I was met by Jagger's parents sitting with mine. None of them was in a good state. I mean obviously if I look bad then the parents are worse than me.

Me: I will be in my room.
Mom: okay sweetie.
Me: Mr and Mrs James, I'm sorry for our loose.

I didn't even wait for their reply, I just walked to my room, locked the door and that was it. I broke down.

4 days later....

Mom: Xhelsy you need to get ready, the funeral is today.
Me: ( I don't say anything)
Mom: how long are you going to stay in that room and not talk about how you're feeling?
Me:( still not responding)
Mom: Just get ready so you can say your last words, do it for Jagger.

I hear her footsteps fade away. I have locked myself in this room for 4 days. I only eat takeouts, I don't take any calls from anyone and I also don't talk to anyone. Today is the funeral but I'm still in bed. I want to go and see him for the last time but I don't want to show how weak I am. I get up, take a shower and got dressed in all black then I took my black glasses and put them on. My eyes are really looking bad so the glasses will help. I walk out of the room and as soon as I got downstairs, my mom gave me a big hug.

Mom: thank you for coming out.
Me: I'm only doing this for Jagger, so that his soul can rest in peace.

I move away from her then went to get my car keys. I walk out of the house as I started driving to the church where the service was happening.

When I got to the church, it seemed like the service was about to start because everyone was walking inside and taking their sits. I walked in and went to sit next to Mr and Mrs James because why not.

Mrs James: He needs you to be strong Xhelsy, he needs you to put yourself together, he needs his old ever laughing friend that always makes jokes and always has a smile on her face.( With tears in her eyes)
Me: I needed him, I still need him but his gone, he left us and everyone is doing well but me, it's like he dead with me.
Mrs James: your going to be fine, you will get over this, trust me.

She pulls me close to her and I rest my head on her chest. The service started and the bible was read then people shared some memories with him and then it was my turn. I got up and walked to where the piano was and set down. I stared playing a song and singing it.

The night we met by Lord Huron ♪♪

I had all then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Oh take me back to the night we met

When I was done, I got up and waked to his body and looked at his face.

Me: Rest in peace Jagger.

I went to sit down and they gave me a hug. A lot of people were now so emotional, I didn't know the song was going to affect them like this. The service ended and we went to bury him at there house. It was his parents idea, they said at least he will still be at home with his parents. Later on we went home, I did see Amelia and Joshua but I didn't want to talk to them so I just ignored them. As soon I got home, I went to my room. I was going to start acting strong. I have to move on now because this can't destroy my life. I thought maybe just maybe Jagger would wake up from the dead but after today, I know that's never happening so moving on is the only option.

Tbc ...........