Eliza Young

Chapter 10

"Ashton, hey. Wait up!" We turned around and saw Kory. I remember this day. This was the day that I finally told Ashton about the voices. I have been diagnosed with acute paranoid schizophrenia last month. I had waited a whole month to tell him about it. I was so scared to tell him that day as well. We had only dated for five months at this time.

"What's up Kory?" Ashton asked.

"Dude! Halo 4 is coming out tomorrow night! Are you going to the midnight release with me tonight?" Kory and Ashton have this little bromance going on. Ashton never passes up a premier or a release or whatever they are called when they happen. But that day was different.

"Sorry Kory, but I actually have some plans set aside tonight." My mouth dropped. What was he talking about? "But let me know how it goes. I would rather spend some time with Eliza tonight anyways." Kory looked at me and just shrugged it off. I hope I didn't cause a fight or anything. Kory waved at us since he had class and ran in the opposite direction than us.

"Ashton, you could go to the thing tonight if you want to. I actually have to work on my short story." Ashton took my hand and kissed my knuckles. He looked into my eyes.

"Eliza, I would rather spend my free time with you than go to that midnight release. In all honesty, I already ordered my copy so I'll pick it up tomorrow." He said with a smile. I am so lucky to fall for this boy.

After class was over, Ashton came over to my apartment for dinner. It was then that I decided to tell him about my mental disability. To say I was scared shitless was a huge understatement. I don't know how he will react to this. I don't know if he will leave me or if he will look at me the same way ever again. Just the thought of him leaving my side brought tears to the brim of my eyes. I held them back though.

"Ashton, can you come here for a second?" I called to him to the couch. He was in the kitchen putting his dirty dish in the sink. He came back to the room with a perplexed look on his face. "Ashton, I have something to tell you. I just don't know how to tell you."

"What is it baby girl?" Ashton looked into my icy blue eyes with his dark brown eyes. I took a deep breath to try to relax myself.

"Just, please, whatever happens, don't leave me. I'm still the same Eliza." I said, tears starting to come to my eyes. Ashton saw that I was battling myself in my eyes. He pecked my cheek.

"I promise. I want you to know that I love you more than anything else. Whatever it is, we will work through it together." I smiled a little and my breath hitched a little bit. I was ready to cry at any given moment.

"Alright. Well, here it goes. Ashton, for the past few months I have been hearing these...voices in my head. You know that little voice in your head that tells you right from wrong? Well I have at least three of them. They aren't sever but they are there." I started to cry right then and there. "I feel like I'm insane. They tell me that I need to kill myself or that I'm useless. I just...I just...." That's when Ashton brought me into a tight embrace.

"Eliza, I'm not going to leave you because of a few voices in your head. I don't care if you're brain dead. Fuck, I don't care if you don't want me to be around you. Just remember that I love you and I will be here if you need my help." He kissed my temples and I cried harder. He stayed at my apartment that night to make sure I was alright.

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It's been a few months since the voices had stopped. The doctor thinks that I am cured, but wants me to stay on my medicine. I told Ashton about it when I found out the news.

That's great!" he picked me up into the air and spun me around. I giggled at this. "Let's celebrate tonight! My treat!" he exclaimed. I smiled at this. This celebration only lasted for a few months until I started to hear the voices again, but this time I didn't tell Ashton.

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I woke up from this memory in his arms. I tried to free myself, but I just couldn't. So, I just laid there in his arms. Waiting for him to wake up. That was, until I had the sudden erg to go to the restroom. Well, shit. This will be fun getting out of. I try to pry myself out of his vice grip. No dice. I tried to wiggle out of his grip. Nope. I then tried to wake him up. My god, he was like a sleeping pile of bricks. You couldn't wake him up with a blow horn. I finally just gave up, until I heard him chuckle. That son of a bitch.

"Good morning, Eliza." He said in that sleepy husky voice. I couldn't stay mad at him. Not with that voice.

"Good morning. Can you let me go now please? I have to pee."

"Nope" What the actually fuck?

"Babe, come on. I have to pee!"

"Not until I get my present."

"Present?"

"It's my birthday today."

"No, your birthday is NEXT month, silly."

"Miss Young, I don't know how much longer your bladder will hold, but I would like to have my present." Ugh...I turned towards his face and gave him a kiss. His grip finally loosened and I escaped. I ran to the bathroom before he could get up and catch me. Success!