Confessions of a white heart

Ep. 1 : Blood Loss

My hometown was silent . Everything heard in the diary evening haze was my footsteps on the ground , accomplished with a peaceful but thrilling silence .

I wear my fabric sweater , with a scarf that covers my whole neck. The air started to ensighten my eyes , in a calm way. My respiration was slowly turning into a disturbing noise , it felt like an horror game, when you're lonely with your breath, and you feel the desire to put music like you can't be jumpscared so easily .

I got back home before anyone noticed i was out in first place . My heart was white. Not blank, white. The only thing that I could hear since the despair hit me was my own breath , only silence between my respiratory system and the sounds of the world. Usually after that day , I answer to questions and to people when they talk to me like I hear them, and I answer them, but I don't really know something , it must be a part of my body that still can work by itself.

That morning, exactly at 08:15, I had school. I had to prepare.

I dressed up with some grey clothes I had in my closet. I didn't even wait for someone to take me to school, I went there walking.

Some minutes after I arrive, the class starts. I couldn't listen, but neither talk, so I couldn't say I couldn't hear. Suddenly, a creature appeared in the window. I stared at it, not scared, with curiosity. Then, I finally hear something, was it the creature? I looked away and I saw there was no class, it was all a blank space. My breath started to be afflicted with despair. In a blink of my eye, I'm back in the class, the teacher is still speaking something I can't hear, I wish I had a power to read lips, but I don't.

Maybe the blinking white of my heart told me not to hear, so my senses are blocked. Suddenly, the teacher looks at me and apparently speaks to me. Unconditionally, my hand raises, but on the blink of my tired eye, the teacher turned into a pile of rocks, all the classroom turned white. I suddenly dropped from my chair. In another blink, my teacher says " Good Job! " . What? Could I listen now? Well, I said literally nothing, so it's strange that he tells me that.

Some irrelevant facts for me, but relevant for whichever part of me which wanted to pass the test, a new class was waiting for me, and after that one, another one. After all the boring sessions, it was time for a break.

In the breaks, I usually do nothing but staying in the class, staring out the window. I usually don't eat at all. I watch the time fly like a white owl lost in the labyrinth of the mist.

My light eyes navigate through the air fighting time, one time and another until break ends.

When the lesson starts again, I act like I'm paying attention until the class ends, technically, I always do that.

When the lessons ended, I walked my way home. In the entrance of the school, I wasn't even conscious that a guy would try to trip me up, by putting his knee down blocking my foot. Not even luckily, the guy didn't have a chance to make me trip up. I almost broke his feet, I continued walking, feeling how all the people in school watch me like I'm a psychopath or a maniac. I feel the need to tell them it's not my fault to have a white heart, but the already mentioned didn't let me do it.

When I arrived home, I ate the first thing I found, I didn't know what was even happening, because I wasn't hungry. I decided to go out again, there was less mist, it was more clear and it could be good for me.

I really thought nothing could happen, until my headphones ran out of battery. I was far from home, so the way back couldn't be easy. I was slowly walking faster on my way, in a level, I ran, but it wasn't a good idea. I accidentally stumbled.

The ground hit my face hardly, as if it was a shot-put ball. I slowly got up and saw my surroundings, it was a light white space, with a pillow and a rug on the floor. It also had a music machine.

My nose was bleeding a lot, I felt like a scarlet waterfall was falling in my face. I quickly grabbed the pillow and I rubbed it in my face. I turned the pillow around and used it to lay my head on it, using the rug as a blanket.

The music machine started playing a nice melody.

I was so cloudy that I couldn't even recognize it. Suddenly, a white rose appeared in the table when I turned around to look at the music machine. I standed up and grabbed the rose. When I smelled it, I heard a sound that sounded like a river. I turned around and there was a whole river beside the rug and the pillow.

I decided to drink water, and put some water on my face, so my blood disappears. I immersed my knees on the water, it was very relaxing, but a hard breeze pushed me into the water. It splashed the rug and the pillow, but when I didn't notice, they disappeared.

I got out of the water, and the hard breeze dried me. The destiny got something prepared for me, the music stopped, and I heard a crack. Then another. And another. Something was breaking, but... What was it? I finally noticed, it was the music machine. Suddenly, some creatures of gray and white started to appear. I jumped into the water and tried to be safe there, but i wouldn't. I got out of the water and I was dried by the hard breeze again, my breath and the tick of my heart started to get louder, as the music machine was still cracking.

The creatures got bigger and faster. The white tone of the atmosphere was turning into black.

The monsters finally arrived. There were pianos falling from the sky and hitting the ground in seconds. But the moment quickly stopped when the cracking turned into a big iris explosion.

I woke up in the middle of the street, with my nose bleeding. I ran home and washed my face. I looked for cotton for my nose but I didn't find one. But then, I noticed that my nose stopped bleeding. Wait, was my nose even bleeding in first place? I thought that it was, but my body has been lying to itself lately. I went to the bathroom again and looked myself in the mirror.

My nose wasn't even bleeding.

I was so impressed, but also terrified. I quickly ran to my bike and rided it in my way to see a friend, I thought I knew what was happening until I found out what happened to me. My heart was completely white, not my other organs, so my heart alters my senses, and I know one prophecy that can help me with this.

Episode End ✩☆✮★

Written by : damonstars
Date : 05/05/24