I CAN DO IT WITH A BROKEN HEART [ p. bueckers ]

one

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I feel hopeless. Like hell is raining down on me. I'm falling down a hole I can't seem to escape, no matter how hard I try to dig myself out.

I'm currently sobbing my eyes out in my bed in the complex that I share with my teammates. It's been an hour since my boyfriend, well now ex-boyfriend, Jenson broke up with me over text. We've been dating since we were sophomores, so three years now. Three years of my time, energy, and love down the drain. Heartbreak is a fickle thing. It chews you up and spits you back out with no mercy.

To break up with someone for another girl is one thing, but over text? Now that's a different kind of low. Sobs still rack my body as I think of all the good times we had together. The dates, the intimacy, the love. But if he really loved me he wouldn't leave me for someone else. That's what I keep trying to tell myself, yet that doesn't make it hurt any less.

I heard a knock on my door and I held my breath. I didn't think anyone was home. Everyone is supposed to be at a party right now that I didnt feel like going to.

"Everything aight in there?" I heard a muffled voice with a hint of a Minnesotan accent question through the door, "I just thought I heard you having a hard time."

Oh. I thought I was stifling my cries pretty well, but clearly not.

I sighed before I answered, wondering if I should tell the truth or not, "Yeah, Paige. I'm all good. Thanks for asking though."

There was a pause before Paige answered, "Aye, don't lie to me, Brandy. I'm coming in."

"No—wait, don't!"

It was too late. Paige already saw my tear stained cheeks and red, puffy eyes. She immediately came bounding over to me where I sat on my bed.

"What's wrong Andy?" Paige brought me into a hug and the tears poured out once again. She softly stroked my hair and whispered sweet nothings into my ear while I tried to grab my bearings.

"J-Jenson. He b-broke up w-with me." I eventually sobbed out.

She softly shushed me, knowing the more I spoke the more I would cry.

"Do you wanna talk about it? Should I call Hayden? Do I kill Jenson? I should kill Jenson. "

I shook my head that Paige cradled, sliding her calloused fingers through my blonde hair.

"I don't need anything yet. All I want is comfort, please, Paige."

"Now that I can give you, Andy."

•••

Sunshine seeped through the curtains in my bedroom. I began basking in the warm glow of the early morning sun, until I remembered the events that occurred the previous night. Dread washed over me and grief became the first feeling that came to me. The puffiness in my eyes had not gone away and resulted in a pounding headache.

I groaned as I was about to get up to get some water, that was until I felt a pair of arms wrapped around my waist. Paige has always been a little touchy with those she cares about, which is why her hand placement didn't surprise me at all.

"Paige," I whispered, "I need to get up, c'mon."

She groaned in response, slowly becoming conscious again.

"What for? You deserve rest, stay in bed. I'll take care of you." Her morning voice rasped.

"No, no, no. I'm not letting you do that." I protested.

"Andy, c'mon. Let me help. You're going through it right now, the least I could do is take care of my teammate."

I sighed giving into Paige's request and laying back in bed. The blonde started getting out of bed and I immediately grabbed her wrist, "Now, where are you going?"

"Getting you coffee." Paige said as if she was stating the obvious, "Still an iced vanilla latte, right?"

I paused before giving her an answer, "Yeah..." I was surprised she has been so attentive to my orders and even willing to do all of this for me in the first place.

Paige started to make her way out of my room until I stopped her, "Wait, Paige."

"Wassup?"

"Just," I took a deep breath, "thank you. You've got a big heart. Don't change that."

"Wasn't planning on it." Paige winked, slowly closing my door.

God damn I have the best friends in the world.

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ME!
GIRL BOOM FIRST CHAPTER!! i'm so scared to post this bc i haven't posted a story in years so it's been a while. honestly not in love with this chapter buttttt oh well :,) a lil short one jus setting up the scene