Tw: ANGST, drugs, cheating, did I say angst????
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I'm sitting on me and Kurt's shared couch, crying. I had just found out he slept with Courtney love, yeah that crazy rat.
"I wasn't meant to go that far, I swear!" he said in a panicked tone, really he has no right to be upset...I hated seeing him upset but I wont tolerate this. "oh so you only meant to flirt with her?! make out with her?!" at this point we're both crying, we both don't know how to feel. I mean I feel guilty making him feel this way knowing his problems, he feels guilty for...well cheating.
"c'mon. I do love you I was just..drunk..high.." he says sheepishly, looking at the floor. "oh my god, you wouldn't cheat if you loved me- and that's your excuse for everything! oh I was high, oh I'm a depressed drug addict! I...I.." mid sentence I stop. realising I had gone too far "Kurt. I'm sorry...I-" he cuts me off "y/n....its okay. You're right..." he says gently "I am an addict, I am a cheater..im a terrible boyfriend" shit man I feel horrible "n-no...its not your fault. I really shouldn't have said that...even if I'm mad you cheated..." he shakes his head "don't worry...lets just try figure this out..." he holds my face softly, rubbing my cheeks. this changed up quickly. I'm not angry anymore...I just feel bad...I always feel I ruin relationships...friendships...I cant lose him. I get snapped out of my thoughts when I hear Kurt's weak and pained voice "I promise ill drop all contact with Courtney...she's not good for me anyway"
"y-yeah...thank you...I'm sorry..." I look up at him, my eyes full of guilt. He furrows his brows, almost confused "why are you sorry. I'm the one that cheated" he say holding my tighter. "well... just...what I said...I feel bad...I was being dramatic..." as I say this Kurt seems angry, but not at me, at something else? "stop it y/n. I'm the one in the wrong here. You deserve to be mad, to say something fucked up. And whoever made you feel you cant then fuck them!" I look away, embarrassed. "I-I...im sorry..." he brings his hands to my shoulders and holds them tightly. "stop saying sorry. I should be saying sorry! you should be refusing to forgive me." Kurt says sternly, so I stop. "I know but I feel bad.." he just looks into my eyes and kisses me. "please forgive me darling" "of course I will.."
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A/N
god this is cringy as fuck but whatever hopefully you guys like it
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FanfictionI am absolutely not a professional writer. this my first story and probably my only story since I'm just doing this for fun this will have no smut !! I feel uncomfy writing that shit but maybe in the future if I keep this up warnings smoking drug a...
