⚠️mental breakdown and swearing at the end⚠️
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Beads of sweat forms on my body, my hands shaking, and I'm trying to breathe sitting on the cold bathroom floor. That felt like hours I couldn't help but scream from all the noise.
"I7s a11 a 4 a 4 dr43π" the figure in the mirror smiled
"Shut up!" I screamed
"You'77 n3v3r m4k£ th3m pr0∆d" it still kept taunting me
"I SAID STOP!!!" I screamed crying and shaking trying to calm down my nerves.
Suddenly the figure vanished and My mother barged in and gasped at what she see's "what happened?!"
my mother rushes by my side
Tears and sweat were dripping from my face as I gasped for air. I almost passed out when I looked up I saw my mother covering her mouth.
"M-m-mom..? I-i-" I was cut off when my mother hugged me tightly,
"7hi$$ i$ 4ll y0uR f4∆lt" the voice from the figure was heard until my mom
hummed to a tone I recognized before
Muffled sobs were the only thing that were heard in the house. It had suddenly become quite when my mother hummed softly.
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"What happened honey?" My mom's voice made it hard to breathe, I felt ashamed for what I did.
"Pls talk to me... Le-let me help you.."
My mom's voice cracked at the last part. I knew she was blaming herself and I wanted to reassure her somehow.
"I-its fine mom, I promise...I-I just had a panic attack that's all." I said even tho I was shaking a bit.
"But you're not, pls cooperate dear... I need you to be strong for me. Explain everything when you're ready okay?"
My mom gave me a smile reassuring smile.
I couldn't help but smile too "okay mom, I will.."
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A few weeks later I was starting to feel better, no demons, no voices, no hallucinations, everything suddenly vanished which kinda freaked me out. But I ignored it after my mom called me for breakfast.
"How's the job your try'na get?" She looked at me while flipping the pancakes.
"They said they'll call me" I said with a forkful of pancakes and eggs.
My mother never really mentioned the panic attack again since she wanted me to confront her and tell her everything when "I was ready." I'm thankful that she doesn't pester me about it since I don't know when I wanna tell her. But I hope my mental health gets better soon...
End of chapter
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Poem before the next chapter
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Credits to the owner
I saw the devil
I've seen a ghost
I'm not even sure
Which one scared me the most
That thing under my bed
Or the demon in my head
What I do know is
It gets me thinking of the dead
Sometimes I feel blue
Sometimes I see red
I can't get this monster
Out of my fuċking head
When I wake up
I'm so full of dread
I don't know the reason
It's only love I want to spread
Between the lines
I always read
But these thoughts
Are on a constant feed
Between the lines
I've always read
Sometimes I say things
I shouldn't have said
Memories haunt
And they taunt
I can't escape
Is this fate?
Block it out
And I will see
It's not the way
I'm meant to be
It takes time
To move on
I'll look back
And see I won
The road is bumpy
And it is long
But I have got this
So I'll stay strong
My mind will clear
The pain will ease
I will no longer be
Living on my knees
There is no right
There is no wrong
Soon I will see
I had this all along
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End of poem
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At Dawn (DISCONTINUED)
Adventure"At Dawn" Is about a girl named Amelia, a photographer who got a position at photo la fashion . Although she got her dream job she gets into a bit of beef with the model she's working with Liam Jones. Will she quit and find a new industry to work at...
