Honestly
Throughout my life
Deep inside
I never felt alive
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"Lee Felix, do you wanna be my boyfriend?"
"Of Course I do!!" I smiled and kissed him
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"Flowers for a beautiful Person"
"Daisies!!! My favourite! Thanks Binnie"
"Everything for my one and only true love"
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"Hey Changbin it's been a while since we went on proper date."
"Ah yeah i've been really busy these weeks"
"But it's been months now"
"Tomorrow, i promise
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"Hey where are you, I'm in front of the cinema"
"Shoot Felix I forgot. I'm with Chaeryoung right now doing school work."
"But you promised?"
"Felix. It's important."
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"Yo Felix Chill"
"NO! You're clearly drunk"
"Whattt can't I get drunk, it's just this time"
"What about the other times? Yesterday? Last Week?"
"Felixxx stop being such a party pooper"
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"Felix, i need to tell you something"
"What is it Hannie?"
"I saw Changbin and Chaeryoung making out on Jackson Wangs Party"
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"Since when do you use drugs?!"
"Since I started to go on parties often"
"You changed"
"People change Felix"
"But you changed negatively. Smoking and drinking was still okay. I was not happy with it. But now drugs? Changbin you're destroying yourself. Hell you're even distancing yourself from me and fucking around with other people"
"You're so controlling Felix. I don't feel alive. I wanna feel alive and go on parties that's what keeping me alive"
"So not me? I am not keeping you alive? Fuck, I am your fucking Boyfriend! I wanna help you but you don't talk to me!"
"No Felix, you don't keep me alive anymore!"
"anymore?"
"Yes of course at first yes but then I started to go to parties and there I realized i can be free. I don't need relationships. Just drugs, alcohol and sex."
"Leave. Leave and never come back. I don't wanna see your face anymore. It's over between us. And can I be honest. These last few months i didn't feel alive either"
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I remember crying deeply. The next day I broke off school and run away from home. Eventually when my parents found me they thought it was better to sent me to a clinic. Since they thought i was mentally not stable. And i agree. I wasn't. I was going crazy. And look i was the one who broke up. So why did i felt like that? Why do i still feel like that.
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Fanfiction"If I gave you one more chance Can we go back again?" -Lee Felix Short Story with Short Chapters Changbin and Felix were in a happy relationship since highschool. Throughout the years Changbin changed. He started smoking, drinking,taking drugs and...
