Chapter4 giving up.

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by TeganCrawford

by TeganCrawford

From now I am going out with Alex he's what I've been dreaming of. we kissed for the first time today but I didn't feel anything...

I love him but I'm scared I will lose him, I don't want to lose the person I love.

Is it really a good idea to go out with him, Ill probably end up hurting him or maybe him hurting me.

{next day}

The next day I arrived at school (not wonting to be there) to see Alex surrounded by a bunch of girls. I started to walk towards him thinking do I confront him or do I just let it go. Suddenly I see him turn around, a shocked look on his face, so I did what I thought best. I ran! I hear his voice shouting to me. "Amanda, come back. honestly it's not what it looks like!" I don't know if I should believe him. I mean I won't to, but I know what I saw. When I reached the toilets I could here a bunch of girls talking. I stood outside and listened.
"Did you hear that Alex is going out with Amanda?"
"What! That depressed attention seeker?"
"Yeah." I wonted to scream. Now I know how everybody saw me. I was know as that depressed attention seeker. I heard the bell ring for first lesson. I really didn't won't to go as it was English and I had to sit next to Alex. When I got there I saw him. I walked to my desk and sat down.
"Is that how you see me, as that depressed attention seeker?"
"Where did you get that from?"
"I over heard some girls. Is that how you see me?" I repeated. Was he using me? I was practically in tears.

Tiggy Crawford