Can You Relate?

Too hard to keep

When you make promises that are too hard to keep

This school year I told myself I just simply didn't want to date anyone. No I know what your thinking , yes i'm only thirteen. A boyfriend to me is like I like you and you like me so lets call each other boyfriend and girlfriend. Which is all it should be at my age, like we don't do anymore than hug and well not kissing but pecks on the cheeks. So from September all the way to around February.

That's when things got hard. Everyone knows that in February it's Valentines day. So here's the deal, a couple days before Valentines day this guy randomly starts to talk to me again. We were friends before but he stopped talking to me because I "hoed him" earlier in the year. Which was not the case, I simply respect myself as a young girl and is not about to let some little boy touch and feel on me like i'm worthless. So I stopped him, and he knew better.

Well now he's back and is determined to become mine boyfriend. I give him a chance and you know get to know him a little. Keeping in mind I have a really close friend that is cool with this guy. He tells me just about everything! The one thing that he says that makes me wonder is that he has "hoes" as in her can get about every girl he wants. When people say "When one doors closes another one opens" he took that literally!

Now this guy is texting me, calling, talking to me everyday! Like he's a really cool guy and all but he's just a little much for me. Now, he says all these sweet nothings just to impress me and I know what he's doing. Along the way here and there he's asking me out. I keep saying idk and no because i'm not ready yet. When now it's literally 2 months later and the sweet nothings start to real me in. I'm telling myself yes, yes, yes forgetting everything my close friend told me. I tried to forget well because my "close friend" was kinda falling for me. I didn't want to go with him!?!?! He was too this and I was too....that. I guess I was afraid of what OTHERS WOULD SAY! I didn't know what to do, when I was falling for my close friend I told myself to STOP! I just couldn't it was wrong, and it would mess up our friendship! Or would it? Could it have made us closer, or even better?

All of this resulted in me losing My close friend and me going with the guy I didn't want to go with in the first place. Was I wrong? Did I make the wrong decision? Was my mind taking over my heart? or was it time? was it time to make mistakes seeing as how i'm young and there is still room for mistake. en know I know right from wrong. Was this wrong?

I guess we'll find out