Cries of Fate

Go Deep

"Chaeille! Open the door! " My parents been shouting my name for like 10 minutes now, I lock myself up again but this time I have my keys here with me inside...
"Leave me alone! I want to sleep, just go already you might be late, I'll be fine " I shouted back, I can't handle the pain but I don't want them to see me in this state...they might think that I'm being crazy again
"Brat, fine we're going, just don't do stupid stuff... Be back in an hour" see even my brother, he doesn't even like me, I thought he will be the one who's going to care about me at all. Before I could even answer back, I heard the car horn means they already left. Open the door after that, hearing nothing but full silence in this house I felt my heart beat faster like the running horse, " This, this is peace" Walking down the stairs "I used to call this my home, I miss talking to them normally, no scratch that I miss them, before the accident happened we used to stay here at the kitchen watching my mom cook dinner, laughing with dad corny jokes and my brother failed lectures, but I miss her the most I miss my big sister my other half, I miss her so much " Wiping my cheeks cause water broke again leaving me drowning, She loves me, enough but too much that she sacrifice lots of things including her life, giving me the most important part of being a human, giving her lovely heart so I can stay which is so traumatic... Since the day she left no one dares to talk to me in a nice way again... Well I think it's my fault too like how my cousin described it to be, way back to my childhood days; playing around like running and using lots of strength is my weakness, I can't do hiking even playing sport so one day before my sister supposed flight date, she insists, she wants me to play with her even for a last time, I agreed of course I'll miss her that's why, but my heart failed to carry all those happiness I nearly die and you know the rest, think about it I become a failure after that. The date today is my sister birthday, tomorrow is mine cruel, right? Every year they held a birthday party and of course fam gathering for my late sister while the next day, nothing, tooooo focus on their works, they will be out before sunrise and got to go home after 10:00.
*ting*
"Prepare I'm going to fetch you "
But one thing for sure my sister loves me that's why she left one more person who will love me too like how she did, and I know why she did that loving me means leaving him, but leaving him with me means taking care of what she loves, and that's my sister soulmate

"Hmm, thanks kuya Savier,"
"Let's read my sister last message is that fine with you? "
"Yup, be there in a minute "

He will always be my sister lover and I'm grateful for that

"I had the book, we're on the last page, this time it's for you and me to find out, your lover really like writing poems huh,"

"She does that even in my dream I had her writing in my head, argh let's not be sad about it, she doesn't like that"

"You have the skills be a writer too, pls"
Oh to pissed him off

"No, I promise her I won't, tsk read it now"

"Oh the poem has its own title, The Go Deep, oh shoot I know that"

My go deep, but it should be you two to find out why...

"How can I pronounce it right, if my mind has been spelling it wrong
My heart bleeds so many times that it doesn't bleed anymore
My own brain has been telling me to give up
My heart still beats but it is not the same beat that I wanted to feel oh boy
My self is betraying me, now I don't know what to do
I feel myself tearing up again but it's not the same reason as like before
It's giving me too much emotion that it doesn't bother me, no more"
                                                    - Vaielle

My Savier,
               This is the last paragraph my love, I'm closing the chapter of mine, but I'm going to make sure that you won't be doing that same thing, always remember that the sky turns blue like ocean when we're together you told me it's kinda not your thing but love the sky cause I will be in there now, every day before the day ends I will paint it yellow to orange and red to pink violent to love you more than any one, choosing paradise will always be on the list of mine and I'm making paradise for both of you and my other half is my duty., Take care Sav, I Vaielle will bloom along with the sky and clouds, may my love embrace you like the soil and the root of trees, feel my words with the cooling breeze of the wind "

                                          Your lovelyway
                                                Vaielle♡