Currently the situation is horrible.
I want justice. That's all I want. Not revenge, but justice. What he did to me was wrong. I know what he did, and he knows what he did, yet he remains unprosecuted.
The reason? He got a lawyer. Because his family has more money than mine does, I cannot get justice.
What I don't understand it why the prosecutor suddenly backed away once they knew that his family had protected the guilty party. I'm new at this. I have no idea how this works. But what I want to know is why I can't get what I deserve, and that is closure.
My mom had delivered this news to me a few nights ago. I let it all sink in then wondered what was left to be done or if that was nothing. I had my mom call the police officer in charge of the investigation. She left a message but to my knowledge he has yet to call back.
I feel so powerless and out of options, which is how I felt since he molested me.
It's always on my mind. I cannot distract myself. I can't get out of bed in the morning. The only reason I wake up is for Seamus. He's the only reason I'm still here right now.
I'll continue to fight on to get what is rightfully mine. I want my life back. He has thrown away my teenage years and now I only have a couple left to enjoy. So fuck you, John, fuck you for ruining my entire life. Fuck you for giving me severe social anxiety, depression, an eating disorder, and fuck you for making me hate every inch of myself. I am going to get justice. Just you fucking watch me.
