Taylor and Travis❤️💛

the eating disorder

*TW* eating disorder, if this topic makes you uncomfortable or in recovery please don't read!

Taylor's Pov:

It's been 2 weeks since i've seen travis i've been busy on tour and he has football and i really miss him so much but i do get to see him tomorrow im coming back to kansas city because i have a break in my tour, the only bad thing is that i will have to eat again i haven't ate anything or if i do it's very minimal for the past 2 weeks and i've been feeling like passing out at the end of the shows, i swore to myself i would never go back to how i was but seeing those pregnancy rumors everywhere i just couldn't help that people just think im gaining weight and im fat but im gonna try to make up excuses so i dont have to eat around travis because he always make sure i eat

I was in my hotel room laying in my bed about to cry because i just hate my body so much but when i hear a knock on my door i quickly get up and see who it is and i see its my dad and i open it

"hey taylor" my dad says

"hey dad how are you" i say trying not to cry

"im good are you okay you look like your about to cry" he says

"yea im fine" i say lying

"okay I was wondering if you wanted to get food somewhere for our last night here before we leave tomorrow morning" he says and i tense up

"umm im not really hungry right now im really tired so im probably gonna go to bed" i say

"oh alright then ill let you get your sleep ill be back in the morning okay" he says

"okay dad see you in the morning love you" i say

"love you too tay" he says

Once the door is shut i just bawl my eyes out, I just feel so guilty lying to my dad and how he wanted us to go somewhere and i just shut him down, i go into the bathroom and just look at myself in the mirror and im just picking apart my body, "i just wished i was skinnier" i thought to myself. Eventually i went into bed and fell asleep

•Next Morning•

I wake up and I see it's morning and im so excited i get to see travis today, i grab my phone on the side table and check the time i see its 9am so I start to get up and get ready since my plane leaves at 10:30. Once im done getting ready and finish packing all my belongings i hear a knock on my door and open it's my dad and let him in

"Hi dad" I say

"Hey tay good morning" he says

"good morning" i say

"ready to get back to the states" he says

"yes im so excited to see trav" i say

"oh i bet you are" he says and i laugh

We leave the hotel and head to the airport, once we are on the plane we get ourselves comfortable since it's a long flight i wouldn't be back in Kansas city till the evening.

"Hey tay do you want anything to eat i'm gonna grab something from the plane pantry" he says

"No thanks dad i already ate this morning" i say hoping he believes me

"Okay tay" he says

Eventually we made it back into the states and dropped my dad off in Florida

"Bye dad i'll see you soon" i say

"Bye tay have fun with travis love you" he says

"love you too dad" i say and we hug

Finally I made it back to Kansas City and I leave the plane and head straight into my car that my drivers in and head to back me and travis's house. Within 20 minutes I make it back but unfortunately it's dinner time and i know im gonna have to eat with him but maybe i can say that i already ate like on the plane yea ill say that thinking to myself. I get the key and unlock the door and i call out his name