appledash type shit 🗣️

chapter 3

*now in the living room*

before i even say anything out loud i sort of stand there for a few seconds trying to piece together what just happened. i end up deciding that i'm going to take a walk to think it through.. during that same thought i contemplate whether i should invite the others. there's a chance they'll get suspicious and start questioning me as if their life depends on it if i just walk out so i GUESS ill invite them.

🌈-" i'm going on a walk does anyone wanna come with?"

i say in a low tone

🦋- i'm okay dashie but thank you

fluttershy gave me a slight smile
pinkie and sunset were asleep.

🍎-" i'll come with i need some fresh air. i seriously need to stretch my legs"
🌈-" ok cool come on"

as me and aj leave the house i hear rarity and twilight enter the living room, but i don't bother to look back. while we're walking down the sidewalk, side by side, i started to think about what rarity and twilight. on one hand they could be right, but on another hand they could just be the same normal twilight and rarity i've known for so long now stressing over something new. ugh this is so annoying to think about im gonna put my headphones in.

as i go to put my other earbud in as i had already put one in, i hear applejack say something. 

🍎-" are you ok?"
🌈-"huh"
🍎-" i said are you okay? seems like somethings bothering you."
🌈-"oh im fine lol"
🍎-" im able to tell when your lying, and you should know that. now i'm not saying you have to tell me or anything, but it's good to get your feelings out sometimes.

she says in the same country accent she's always had.

ig i appreciate her trying to atleast talk to me though. i try putting my pride to the side as i say this but it doesn't feel right. i try anyways.

🌈-"sorry aj i guess ive just been sorta stressed with sports and just other things.

saying how i sorta feel out loud feels so wrong but its ok. i mean its just me and her what's the worst that could happen??

🍎-" ohh i  get it don't worry"
🌈-"haha thanks"

i say as i playfully push her. she pushes me back, and i smile.

🍎-"what you listening to?"

she says as she tucks her hair behind her ear while seemly looking ahead of us.

🌈-" I'm just listening to she by tylerthecreator. have you heard of him? he makes fire music dude"
🍎-"ohh no i havent heard of him. i usually stay on the country side of things yk?"
🌈-"then your missing out. wanna take a listen?"

she smiles and looks over at me

🍎-"Sure"

i would never say this out loud but i like not having to always be with ten other people at a time. i love my friend group but sometimes i can't keep up with them.

i grin widely and hand one of my ear buds over to applejack. part of me is excited to see how she'll react. i'm suddenly super into this conversation. i guess i haven't really talked about my music taste with any of my friends. besides the fact that we make our own music, it's not really that.. well it's not really MY style. of course i still like the music we play but i've made a couple of my own songs i haven't shown the group. and i know i'm basically the leader of our band, i kinda have a all over the place music style. i can't make up my mindd

i wait for her reaction as i watch her grab the earbud out of my hand and put it in her ear. i don't think that she by tylerthecreator was exactly the style she thought it'd be. but nonetheless she still seemed to like it

🍎-"it's uh- it's different from what i thought it'd be. still a good song though"
🌈-"Yeah"

there's a moment of silence of where she looks like she's trying to find the right words to put something together, and she says,

🍎-"im glad we went on a walk together"
🌈-"oh uh me too"

while we're walking back to pinkie pies house on the short walk we took, she seems like she's deep in thought.

🌈-"is something up?"
🍎-"wha- oh no my bad"
🍎-"just thinking"

told ya. i decide to ask what she's thinking about. i mean what better to do?

🌈-"watcha thinking about?"
🍎-"just stuff"
🌈-"what stufffff??"
🍎-"well uh-"
🍎-"just stuff rainbowdash"

i make a face at her, and usually she'll do something like roll her eyes or make a face back, cause that's just kinda what we do, but this time she doesn't even really have an reaction. It was more like her grandma had just died, she looked like she was upset but didnt want to show it.

after looking at her for a spilt second i kinda realize how upset she looked and something in me kinda pushed me to ask if she was ok.

🌈-" woah dude are you okay?"
🍎-"rainbowdash i'm fine"
🌈-" you sure don't look fine"

i look back over at her and she just looks like she can speak anymore. like some done preventing her from speaking. i don't know how to explain it but she kinda looked how i did after losing my soccer game in 7th grade, i looked visibility devastated but i had this sensation in my throat from trying not to cry (cuz that'd be uncool) and it looked like she felt the same. i don't know how to go about this what should i do?

i think about what to do. then i think about it some more. at this point we're just staring at eachother. i feel like something sort of took over me cause this next part i don't even know why i did it.

i lean in for a hug and i hug her tightly. idk man it just seemed like she needed it. it was a bit odd for me because i usually only side hug people. i think the only person i've ever fully hugged is pinkie pie, and i think we all know it's because of how touchy she can be. but anyways she didn't have to say anything for me to realize something was up. and she didn't refuse my hug or anything she hugged me back. i would never EVER say this out loud but it was probably one of the best hugs i've ever had, and pinkie pie gives the BEST hugs. after that hug which seemed like it lasted forever she kinda didn't say anything while we were walking back to the house, and i didn't say anything either. i didn't notice it at first but we were actually holding hands on the way back. i don't know why i felt this way but i kinda felt myself turning red.. which is embarrassing to even think about but it's true. i hate how uncool this seems, i think maybe im just confusing a friend relationship with a real one. maybe??