In between - queen of tears

Name

Hae In's POV

Every one except me were at the dining table. Both the Hongs and Baeks were chatting and basking at each other's presence. The Baeks were trying to lighten the mood while comforting the Hongs.

I was outside, trying to just breathe and forget all the problems, even just for tonight.

Hyunwoo sat beside me and held my hand.

"Its ok to cry Hae In-ah. I am here"

"I already did. I only regret never saying I love haraboji in front of him."

"He knew and that's all that matters. You loved him more than you love me anyway."

I only raised my eyebrow in question.

"You did not take my last name because of him"

I suddenly felt guilty.

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(Flashback)

I was fidgeting. Why am I nervous? Its just a name. But it is my name. Hong Hae In. These were the words that saved me multiple times, words that kept me grounded whenever I felt like running away. I always shouted it in my head to make sure I still cared about myself. Hong Hae In was with me all throughout my lonely existence. I couldn't give it up. Hyunwoo would understand. I kept trying to convince myself that he would understand. Me not taking his name wouldn't make him doubt my love for him, right?

"Hyunwoo, grandfather asked me to keep my name. You won't oppose right? You wont be petty and get hurt?"

He lifted his head from the pillow and supported it with his arm. He looked confused for a minute. Then his face softened. He must have seen the panic in my eyes. Using his free hand, he lightly traced my jaw.

"Araso"

Then there was a sudden glint in his eyes. A playful grin gracing his lips.

"I also like saying your name"

I blushed. Cham