Meet me halfway
Dionysuseyes
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“I’m giving you now the chance to quit and give up, Fayre. I am a man who don't need anyone by my side. I can simply survive with or without anyone loving and caring for me.” He said with a smirk. He's challenging me so I didn't back out. I'm sure of him since day one so backing out is pointless.
“It’s final. I won't back out. I’ll keep chasing you, Luke. I’ll do everything to have you, by hook or by crook.” I said it to him with a confident and a lil bit of desperation on my voice. My cheeks are too red to deny this embarrassing moment of mine. I just confessed to him. I really love him ever since we were a child, I saw everything that happened in his life, I know everything he likes and he doesn't like, I know him very well.
“Chase me then. Keep on chasing me until I meet you halfway.” He said then leave me in the garden where dandelions are planted. I can't explain what I'm feeling right now. I wanna cry because of too much happiness yet I also want to laugh hard because I don't know if this feeling is worth risking for.
As the wind gently touches my skin, I wish together with the dandelions his safety and happiness.
It’s my 5th year of chasing, Luke and I’m already hopeless. I did everything to make him mine, I used all of love languages I know just to make him yes but I don't think this will work. I'm starting to lose my hopes.
I start fixing my eyeglass and go to the garden where I confessed to him. The sweet ambiance of the place welcomes the heavy clouds in me.
I can feel the rain slowly falls on my cheeks so as my tears.
I started to release the storm inside my heart that keeps on making me feel sad.
“You may now stop chasing me, Fayre.” said by a deep baritone voice. I turned my back and saw him again, at the same place, standing gorgeously infront of me.
“Stop chasing me, Fayre. It's been 4 years since I died. Let me rest because I'll never be able to meet you halfway anymore, mi amor.” And by that time, he disappeared like a bubble. He's not d-ad yet, he's not! He's still alive!
I cried out loud until I got no more tears and voice to used. My eyesight turns blurry until all I can see is black.
“Apo, gising na.” A soft voice wakes me up.
I open my eyes in a white room, I can smell some medicines so I'm sure that I'm inside of the hospital. Why am I here in the first place? I'm in the garden, right? With Luke, with him, with the only man I love.
“Nako, Apo! Iyong itigil na ang kakabisita sa puntod ng kababata mong si Luke, hayaan mo nang makapagpahinga ang kaluluwa niya.” Malumanay ngunit madiin na paalala ni Lola.
“Alam naming mahal mo si Luke, Apo pero kung naririto siya ay tiyak na hindi niya gusto ang pinaggagawa mo. He died on a car accident bago ang pagsagot niya sayo. Sana naman ay malagay kana rin sa tahimik, Apo. Nahihirapan narin kami sayo.” A teardrop fell on my grandma’s eyes that made me feel guilty. For all these years, I'm not aware of my behavior. I made myself believe that he's still alive. I made fake scenarios and bacame delusional.
I know that I'm not the only one who's hurting dahil sa pagkawala ni Luke, lahat kami but I became selfish.
Right now, I'm touching his favorite race car. A smile escapes on my lips while reminiscing everything that happened.
I'm sorry for being selfish, love. I'm wide awake now, I know that you can't meet me halfway way anymore so I'm now letting you go. Be happy wherever you are, fly together with dandelions... I'll love you until then.
