History won't repeat

Know it's for the better

Poppy's Pov:

It's been a year since Alexandra died, well technically three month, which means I'm also three months pregnant.

I plan on keeping them, I have my appointment to find out the gender in two weeks which is when I reach the four months mark.

Ryker has been sending letters again. His birthday is next week he'll be 10. I just wish Lex was here to celebrate with us.
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Ry's birthday just passed, he's now ten. I have my appointment in twenty minutes, I've been nervously chewing my nails as I waited to be called.

And the smell makes me nauseous, I've personally never liked the smell of the hospital.

I hear my name get called.

Doctor Grey: Poppy Jellen

I walked over to her, she looked down at me giving me a skeptical look.

Doctor Grey: Aren't you a bit young

Poppy: Can we just get this over with please, this place is making me nauseous

I said, changing the topic, she leads me to an empty exam room.

Dr. Grey: State your name, birth date, and age please

I gulped nervously as I don't know how she'll respond.

Poppy: Umm Poppy Olive Jellen, October 4th 2006, age 11.

Her head wiped around.

Dr.Grey: And how- how did this happen

As he questioned, I looked at the ground from where I was sitting on the table.

Poppy: M-my father r-rap- I'm sorry I can't say it...

Dr.Grey:It's ok, you don't have to I know it must be a hard subject to talk about.. did you report him?

She asked, I shook my head no

Poppy:No one would believe me... plus he's the head of the police department.

I stated, her lips form an 'O' shape.

Dr.Grey: Umm ok let's just let's have a look shall we.

She puts this weird jell on my stomach, which had a slight protruding bump. She grabbed this wand like thing... I think it's called a doppler.

Then this sudden noise filled the room, it was a pounding noise like 'thump thump, thump thump'. I looked at Dr.Grey for reassurance.

Dr.Grey: That... is your baby's heart beat, and that is your baby.

She pointed to the screen, tears burned at the edges of my eyes.

Dr.Grey: Would you like to know the gender

Poppy:Yes please

She observed the screen for a moment before turning back to me and saying.

Dr.Grey: Congratulations. It's a boy.

I just smile form ear to ear, with a stupid grin that probably looked like the Cheshire Cat.

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I got home, the house was quiet meaning that Sal was gone.. it didn't bother me he'd been gone since last Sunday.

When I got a call, I picked it up.

Poppy:Hello

Officer:Hi is this Poppy Jellen

Poppy:Yes this is she

Officer:I'm sorry to inform you but, you are listed as Ryker's emergency contact.

Poppy:Oh god please tell me my brother is ok

Officer:I'm sorry but he's tragically passed in a car crash.

No words came out even though I had formed the sentence nothing would come out. First I lost my baby sister, my sweet little Lex, but now I've lost Ry to.

Officer:Hello

Poppy:Sorry I just... thank you

I hung up the phone. It stings so bad but I can't sulk about it because I'm having a baby in five months. Well now I know what I'm naming him, in honor of Ry.

His name will be Ryker Brooks Jellen.