[5/13, 17:30] Ayeni: You know you shouldn’t be sad, your sister’s wedding is around the corner.
[5/13, 17:32] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I don't know😒
[5/13, 17:32] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm tired
[5/13, 17:33] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Everyday I wake up tired
[5/13, 17:33] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: It's like do I have to repeat the day again
[5/13, 17:33] Ayeni: Cos of the preparation?
[5/13, 17:45] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Nay
[5/13, 17:45] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm mentally stressed
[5/13, 17:45] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I want out of everything
[5/13, 17:45] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm not happy seeing the next day
[5/13, 17:45] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Cos it's like it's moving in circles
[5/13, 17:46] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Noo, it's repeating
[5/13, 17:46] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm not happy
[5/13, 17:46] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm not living
[5/13, 17:47] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm just breathing and sometimes it's like I don't have to breathe anymore
[5/13, 17:47] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Let it just seize
[5/13, 17:47] Ayeni: Have you talked to someone about this?
[5/13, 17:47] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Who
[5/13, 17:47] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: God?
[5/13, 17:47] Ayeni: Anyone. Your siblings, parents.
[5/13, 17:47] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I think he's tired of me
[5/13, 17:48] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm smiling cause I don't want to be questioned
[5/13, 17:48] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: It's like nothing is wrong but everything is wrong
[5/13, 17:49] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm talking to you am I not
[5/13, 17:49] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I don't have to tell them
[5/13, 17:49] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: They won't understand
[5/13, 17:50] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Or you don't understand too
[5/13, 17:50] Ayeni: Until something happens?
[5/13, 17:50] Ayeni: I get you Abby.
[5/13, 17:50] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: What is the worst that can happen
[5/13, 17:50] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm already in my worst
[5/13, 17:50] Ayeni: Can I call you?
[5/13, 17:50] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm walking
[5/13, 17:50] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I have to buy things to make food for the night
[5/13, 17:51] Ayeni: That’s why you need em to listen to you. Your dad’s a counsellor.
Come on.
[5/13, 17:51] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I looked at my sister's baby and I felt nothing
[5/13, 17:51] Ayeni: Ok.
At your parents?
[5/13, 17:51] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: My dad
[5/13, 17:51] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Lol
[5/13, 17:51] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Yes, I've been home
[5/13, 17:51] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: This place sucks
[5/13, 17:51] Ayeni: You don’t have to feel something always.
You have life to live.
Please don’t just survive.
[5/13, 17:51] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I can't live
[5/13, 17:51] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I feel numb
[5/13, 17:52] Ayeni: Then go back to where you were. Go close to school.
Mingle with people.
[5/13, 17:52] Ayeni: You can.
You should.
You have to.
[5/13, 17:52] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I can't
[5/13, 17:52] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I don't like it there
[5/13, 17:52] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I want to be alone
[5/13, 17:52] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I don't want to stay with anyone
[5/13, 17:53] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Everyday I keep saying I'll be fine
[5/13, 17:53] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: But they are just words
[5/13, 17:53] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I don't even know what it means anymore
[5/13, 17:53] Ayeni: You want to leave home totally?
[5/13, 17:53] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I guess I got it to saying it that it no longer gives meaning
[5/13, 17:54] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Yes
[5/13, 17:54] Ayeni: Have last have you studied the Bible?
[5/13, 17:54] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Everything, everywhere and everyone
[5/13, 17:54] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I found no joy in it
[5/13, 17:54] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: God is not answering me
[5/13, 17:54] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: He's tired of me
[5/13, 17:54] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I asked for help but I got pains
[5/13, 17:55] Ayeni: Until you speak to someone, how would you feel relieve?
[5/13, 17:56] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'm talking to you am I not
[5/13, 17:56] Ayeni: You are Abby. I’m sorry.
[5/13, 17:56] Ayeni: I want to help.
[5/13, 17:57] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: But you can't
[5/13, 17:57] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I Know
[5/13, 17:58] Ayeni: You feel I’m limited to how much I can help you?
[5/13, 17:58] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I don't feel so
[5/13, 17:59] Ayeni: Alright d
[5/13, 17:59] Ayeni: I want to call you when you get home please.
[5/13, 18:00] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: I'll be busy
[5/13, 18:01] Ayeni: You’ll be alright my dearest Abby.
[5/13, 18:01] AmaRaCHi🥂❤️: Okay
[5/13, 18:02] Ayeni: And please be good.
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journal diary
Non-Fictionwhen you don't have anyone to tell things, just write 'em it help alot. there are ups and downs and depression is real especially when you have no one to confide in.
