Her Muse

chapter 16

Saira's POV :

After finishing the race I remove my helmet in a filmy way , cause hell did they just look down on me like ME , never , no one has ever looked down on me and the crowd goes wild, which should be obvious......cause it's me.........

After finally showing off that yours truly is the winner , my best friends come and give me a tight hug , which we always do after my every race cause they know.......bout the reason why I race , in which state of mind I race......

" You had your episodes again?? "

And I just nod cause when I have my episodes I let go of my will to speak with someone, mingle around, play pretend and most importantly I become more and more cold I.....I just don't feel anything, it's like I'm heartless , whose body is there but the soul...... it's.......dead

And we move to the rest room and since I'm currently having my episodes I can't sleep, I've never sleept any healthy hrs when I've had these episodes, even if I'm dead tired I can't sleep, nothing soothe me when my inner demons run wild
It gives me ideas which I shouldn't have..........

As I was thinking hard Reyansh comes in , stands in front of me, folds his hands and stares at me
But I've become soo numb to react, say or do anything so I sit there like a soulless statue

" Tum yaha kya kar rahe ho " asks Moksh
( What are you doing here )

I can feel him staring at me but , urghh fuck off
" Batt karne aaya tha tumhari bestfriend se "
( Im here to talk to your best friend )

" Tum yaha nahi aa sakte , yaha sirf racers hi aa sakte hai "
( You can't come in here , only the racers are allowed to come here )

" Accha Tho tum log yaha kyu ho phir "
( Why are you here then )

" Hum bhi racers hi hai "
( We are also racers )

" Ohh.......toh kyu nai aa sakte yaha pe non-racers "
( Ohh.....then why are non racers restricted to come here )

Umm.......... after hearing them bicker , I'm sleepy which is kinda surprising so I hug Reyansh and take a nap , fuck everything, everyone , the world can go fuck itself for all I care.....umm.....my peace.....my muse

Reyansh's POV :

This girl seriously, ughh she'll really be the end of me , the girl who was clearly ignoring my presence just now is hugging me , wow but hey do you think I'll let you hug me or rather forget how you were ignoring me......as I was about to push her away
One of her best friend stops me

" Don't "

" Excuse me, why shouldn't I push her away when she jumped on me like this and on top of that she isn't even speaking for herself "

" I guess......ummm you........" He trails off And he looks at his another best friend and answers
" She's not just hugging you...... she's ughh she's sleeping- "

" Huh " I'm surprised cause this voice belongs to Avi
But wait what , did he just say sleeping and just to cross check that I push her slightly, bend a little....but I guess her friends were right cause she mumbles

" Sone do na " ( let me sleep ) and I react so fast that even I'm surprised

" Sushh........koi nai jaga Raha tumhai....soojav hmm " Carsing her head I put her back to sleep.....but wait did I ever do this....
( Shh...no one's waking you up , so sleep hmm )

But I think she is in a difficult position as she is sitting and I'm standing

" She was awake till now , so what happened"