Her POV
"Uhh, yeah..." For a moment, I think my heart raced faster as I smiled like an idiot. "But as a friend, if that's what you mean," he added with a nervous giggle. My smile dropped as my eyes widened.
He didn't love me? What was I thinking?!
"Oh, uhhh, nice," I blushed, totally embarrassed by thinking that he'd ever like someone like me. "That's what you meant, right?" he asked in concern. I gave him a fake smile. "Yeah, totally! What else could I mean?" I elbowed him playfully.
"Good!"
He kept talking about our plans but I couldn't hear a thing. The only thing I realized was how he seemed to be far away and out of reach even though he was soo close to me. My world was shattered in a few seconds by just three words - "As a friend".
I should've known that this love would always be a one-sided shit. Of course, he's dated and slept with a lot of better women.
Take Mariá for example... The first time I saw her, I knew I was no match for her.I knew he'd eventually go back to her and treat her as the queen she was.
And me? Oh, I'd be left unnoticed and loveless... and lovesick too.
The feeling of utter rejection was too heavy. Oh no... My eyes were watering up! I didn't want him to see me in such an embarrassing state so I quickly stood on my feet, avoiding his gaze.
"I've gotta go do something for my gramps at home so I'll leave now," I tried to stop my voice from trembling. "Oh, okay. Text me when you're done. Your ideas are very fascinating," he grinned. "Sure, thanks for today! I'll be leaving now!" I walked as fast as I could towards the door. I opened the door, said "Byee!" and dashed out of the house like Flash.
Once I was out, my tears took control of me. I quickly got into my car and started driving. I was a crying mess as I drove, frequently pulling my hair in frustration. I bit my lips to stop the tears but they just wouldn't stop running down my cheeks.
It was 9:45pm and I was hitting the road in tears, driving like a psycho. I stopped at a roundabout and I thought for a while. An idea popped up inside my head and hell no! I wasn't gonna let such a stress-relieving moment go.
At a desired speed, I hit the gas and went round the roundabout numerous times. There weren't many cars around and that made the moment an effective one. I laughed loudly, still shedding tears as I drove carelessly. "He doesn't fucking love me!"I shouted.
I went round for a while and when I was satisfied, I took the left turn and stopped. With my forehead on the steering wheel, I cussed at myself, chocking on my tears.
" I'm soo dumb! Why did I ever think like that?! Am I that blind? Is it that hard to see that I'm unlovable?... He's just too perfect.
"And me? I'm just a worn out shy loser who never knows her place! Who knows... It must be due to pity that he befriended me - PITY! " I hit the gas again at just the thought of it. My chest and heart hurt soo much. The tears? They were abundant and free.
The road seemed blurry due to my tears but I survived after driving recklessly... I guess I'm just a lucky loser. I was heading home at first but then, I caught sight a very lively night club.
Why not? Stress reliever?
I stopped at the club's parking lot and I had Ina (A floating drone - like machine that changes my clothes up with just a scan) dress me up.
I got out of the car and locked it up. I walked past a lot of people - Couples and single people - as I made my way to the door. People were whispering as they stared at me, clearly surprised that the awesome granddaughter of the world famous Mr.Bradley, the former president of the best company in the world of animation and visual effects,had showed up at a club, yayyy(Sarcasm) ... !
A man was standing at the entrance, welcoming people when I got there. He averted his eyes to look at me. "Hello, beautiful! Welcome to the LA Bisco Club. Feel free to leave tips," he said to me. I nodded politely and entered the noisy place.
What am I doing here?!
