You're not good for me // B.E

Four

"Will you kiss me, Alex?" My heart stopped with those words. I wanted to. I really did. But i also wanna get to know her better. One kiss tho wont hurt right?

Fuck it. I softly moved my face closer and then i felt her lips on mine. I felt fireworks light up inside me. Elephants going crazy in there.

Billie hesitated for a split second and then reciprocated the kiss. My hands automatically flew to her cheek, to hold her close. I never wanna let go. Her lips are so soft. So kissable. So perfect.

I felt Billies hands landing on my hips and tugging me a little closer. I feel the need to breathe in, but i am not moving away until i am about to pass out.

Or so i thought. Because the second we heard the door lock click we jumped so far away, that i was in the mirror just looking at myself and Billie was leaning on the wall, looking at her nails.

Now if you ask me, it doesn't look innocent at all honestly. Definitely looks like something was happening just a second ago. And then Odessa walked in. Of course. Cockblock.

"There you guys ar-" she didn't even finish the word as she looked at me, then at Billie and her eyes flickered back and forth between us.

"Did i miss something? What were you guys doing?" now her tone was teasing and playful. Fuck you Odessa. You ruined the moment. Billie was just staring at Odessa. She seems mad.

"Nothing we were just talking" i try to ease the situation. My heartbeat is beating faster than Usain Bolt ever ran. I wanna feel Billies lips on mine again. Fuck.

"Well if nothing let's goooo" Odessa just dragged us both out of the bathroom and back into the garden, where everyone was sitting.

Sheila and Prince got back, they were all smiley and gushy, lucky bastards, my time with Billie was interrupted but at least they had their private time.

I sat down now in my place on the couch, Odessa sat right next to me. Everything looked the same, as the day i walked in this circle. Well plus Sheila on Princes lap and the crusty mattress wasn't here.

Billie was standing there contemplating for a second on where to sit, she looked like she was battling inside her and then just sat down on my lap. I felt the heat rising to my cheeks as i instinctively wrapped my arms around her. It seemed like time stopped and suddenly everyone looked at us.

"What ya looking at? A girl can't sit on girls lap? Mind your business" i giggled at Billies words and everyone just went to minding their own business. My heart however was still beating fast as it seemed to do every time Billie was near me. I'll have a heart attack soon if it continues.

We smoked, we talked, we played random games and everyone was either high or drunk, so Prince proposed to stay at his place, which i didn't know that this mansion was his honestly.

The only problem was that me and Billie had to share a room, cause other rooms were occupied either by drunk party goers or people from our circle.

And to be completely honest I wouldn't call this situation a problem. Because it means that i'll get to sleep with Billie today. In the same room. On the same bed. And if i get lucky i'll get to cuddle with her as well.

So when we walked to the room, i went to the joined bathroom to shower and what not. And when i walked into the room Billie was propped on the headboard scrolling through her phone. When she heard me walk in she looked up at me.

"Hey Lex" i just smiled and fell into the bed, i am so tired after the whole day. I soon felt Billies fingers slowly massaging my scalp and i groaned into the comforter.

"If you continue this i'll be asleep in three seconds Billie" i sighed and propped myself on my elbows, just looking at Billie. A soft smile sprawled across her lips.

"Come lay down" she patted the spot next to her and i gladly did exactly that. Billie lifted up the covers and i got in next to her. I laid my head on her chest and she continued to massage my scalp with her nails. It felt so good. I felt content and happy. I felt her lips on my forehead and a quiet 'go to sleep' murmured against it. I didn't fight back. My arms wrapped around Billie and i slowly drifted off to sleep with Billie next to me.