Self Conscious Villaness (Boys×Villainess)

𝘼𝙬𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜(𝘐𝘐)

Seraphina sat at her bed in her thoughts. Just after she woke up she had thrown everyone out. This was her moment. She needed peace and quiet to think about it. Memories flashed in her mind.
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A small child seemed to stop in his way in the middle of the path. It was strange. I slowly made my way there followed by 3 other maids and so called friends. But it suddenly jerked up and ran away. "What a strange kid." I huffed and walked to my uniform direction.
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I saw Diana by the garden. She was watching over the hens and playing with a chick. I smiled and slowly made my way to her. "I feel bad. You still have to do the peasant work. "

I gave her a fake warm smile which she obviously didn't noticed. "It's..its fine. " Her voice was low and croaky. It showed her fear towards me.

I chuckled and looked at the hens and stood beside her. Now she was gazing at my right sided face. I could sense the glimmer and glitter she was feeling. "For a second I forgot this was your life. " I looked at the small chick on her hand. "Do you like it?.. The child of the hen. "

She smiled and looked at her hand. "Yeah it's very small. I just found it in the coop few days ago. It's wing have just started to grow. It's feather is different than others. I like to check up on it every day. " I smiled and carefully took the chick in my hand.

"Well I forbid you ,goodbye. I'm happy you always remember your place even though your mother forgets it few times. " I saw her smile drop and proudly walked.

Suddenly she came toward me and stopped me. Her head hanged low looking at the chick in my hand. "Where are you taking the chick? "I simply began to walk and explained. my motive happily as I walked.

" It would make a wonderful meal. I'm putting it at the kitchen farmhouse with other chicken. " All the joy she hold was gone now. It made me feel special.

"Why? Why do you behave like this? "I sensed her tears while she mumbled. I thought about it. Of course it was her mother's fault . She came to steal everything that belonged to me. But I was still the same girl. My mother's death affected me but why can't I even sense any emotion? Am I dead on inside like others say?
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I walked in the hall but a maid came in my way and matched my eyes. She stared at my eyes before looking down quickly. I was angered at her behavior and walked towards her. " How dare you match my eyes. You are a maid, a commoner, a slave even. You shouldn't be capable of doing that."

The maid looked young adult. She quickly bowed her head continuously and asked for forgiveness. "I'm sorry My lady. I-I was just umm I didn't saw you no - I -it's just that um i-I was I was... "

"You seem to have a lot of free time. Tell me what you do all day that your voice is gone now. "The maid began to cry. She immediately apologized and looked at the ground still bowing to me.

" Did you NOT HEAR ME!!. Tell me your daily work and I shall think before taking your eyes out.! "I saw some maid surround the area and guard taking place. The maid began to shiver and her voice wasn't straight.

" Umm I -I wake up,. And um look after my family then I come to work and go home. "I raised my eyebrows and let out a huff.

" That's all. What do you do daily... Your routine..tell me . I may forgive you then. "She looked everywhere through the ground looking at other maids and guard for help but decided to speak.

" I cook.. Cook here and there. Umm it's ok- I go home. I-I don't.. I do work.. I'm -I'm mother had a maid. I-I do a lot.. B-but i-I don't umm my head. I what do I do? "Before anything could happen she fainted. I looked at her pitiful statue laying on the the ground.

I made a disgusted face and walked as if I saw a swarm of beggars. The only word that escaped my mouth was 'pathetic'. She can't even remember her daily chores. Just a excuse for a life.
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I was at Royal Palace. A small gathering among nobles was taking place. After talking to my beloved prince I saw Diane slip through the palace to the garden. I followed her to see she was driven out by a small butterfly. She stopped near a pond and stared at her reflection. After some moment she suddenly backed up and fell down on the ground. She wiped her tears and made her way in from the north side. What was that?

Really? Crying? This shallow girl will do anything for attention....I made my way to the same pond.I looked at the reflection but I couldn't hold the sight I saw. I was beautifully decorated like a flower in a Bouquet. I smiled to myself.

If I was to be a flower I would be rose. Pretty yet deadly but she.. Diana would be a lotus. Grew up in a low dirty society but pretty. No.. She isn't pretty? Not anything compared to me? I should be the one? Father favours her more than me, Why? Is it because the way I act? But it's simple why I act like that?.

I want to be like that. Isn't that a good reason? I feel like I accomplish something. I feel proud and high of myself. Is this what's being selfish is called? Why should I care? But I'm... I'm me, the daughter of... What's the point? He doesn't treat me like one. Am I even his daughter?.... Am I THE Seraphina? I saw something else in the reflection in the water.

A small fragile girl with soft and innocent face. It's me? I have no such traits. I'm not supposed to be like that. I slowly bend over the shore and touched my reflection. Instead of me drawing my hand back something inside the water pulled my wet fingers and took me inside the deep water. What is happening? Why can't I think of the pain I will feel? Am I not afraid of dying?
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