Not so little, little

Jealous

Shinsou pov
I see the caregivers drop off their littles. 'Why couldn't that be me. I want one. I want someone to take care of me. But no one will.' That I why I don't want to be a little. But I can help but do little things. 'I hate it. I hate it. I HATE IT. Why me? God why me?' I see a blonde be stubborn with his red headed caregiver. 'Doesn't he see how lucky he is?' The bell rings and I head to class. I start day dreaming in class. 'If I had a caregiver, I would want to be someone like kind and understanding. Someone with a lot of patience.' I snap out of it when I hear my name get called. "Shinsou answer the question", demanded the teacher. "What was it again?" The teacher looked at me with disgust. "You see class this is why you pay attention". She went right back to teaching. I want to cry. I wanna cry so bad. That was so embarrassing.
First period is finished and we have time to spare before the next teacher comes. I can hear the my class mates laughing about what happened earlier. 'It wasn't even that funny' I'm so annoyed. Whenever I get like this, I go over to the daycare. Seeing the littles playing pretending I was them calmed me down. But I don't like doing that. I'm trying to prove that a little can live a happy life without regressing. So far it has not been proven yet, but that because I haven't found anything interesting to be happy with. As I walk over to the daycare, I cross paths with eraserhead. I walk past him but I sensed that he stops. I look back and now he's facing my direction. "Are you supposed to be out right now?", he asks. "I had to use the bathroom.", I replied. "I thought they had bathrooms in class and even if they didn't, they let you go by your self?" What is he talking about? " um are you ok aizawa sensei?" He walks over to me and look at me closely. "Where's your lanyard?" My what? I look at him confused. "You know the thing they give the littles" WAIT DOES HE THINK IM CONING FROM THE DAY CARE? AND HOW DOES HE KNOW IM A LITTLE??!!? " um sensei im not coming from the day care, im coming from class. You see im not a little." I chuckle trying to throw him off. "Oh your not, sorry I don't know why I had a feeling you were one", he sounded embarrassed. I assure him it's ok and we go our separate ways. 'That was so scary' I get to the day care and see the littles napping. 'I sure could use a nap as well' I turn my back to the walk and slid down. I pull my knees to my chest and rest my head on them. All of a sudden I hear the door open. "Toshi I see your doing well. Are you tired?", asked cementoss. I shook my head. I get up and try to back to my class room. However I was stopped by a wall. "Come inside for a quick nap." I shook my head again tiredly. I speed walk away knowing he won't be able to catch me because he can't leave the littles. 'God I'm so tired' I'm basically drooping right now. I head is low and my back is hunched. I reach my class room and before I could open the door, I hit something. 'Another wall? No this feels different'. Suddenly I get picked up. "Sleep", said the mysterious wall. I feel walking and smell coffee. But this is wall is so comforting. I think it's a person. I rest my head on something soft and layered, like a scarf. 'Is this aizawa sensei?' Ok now I feel like I'm being transferred to someone else. He feels very hard. Before aizawa left he said, "I knew you were a little". Cementoss thanked him for bringing me to him and then he left. I was put into a crib and went to sleep.

I woke up 2 hours later and it was already time for lunch. I try to grab the railing of my crib but realized what I'm wearing. I was wearing footie pajama. I went out my crib and looked for my school clothes. I looked over at the cubbies and found them. I see a cubby with my name one it which is where i found my clothes. I get annoyed and rip the name tag off. I walk out the classroom and go the bathroom. I change my clothes and throw the pajamas in the trash. I head over to the cafeteria and get in line. After 15 of eating I was half way done. Aizawa comes my way. "What are you doing out of the daycare?" Now I'm mad "maybe I'm not in the daycare because I'm not an age regressor", I reply angrily. "Are you up set because you didn't get enough nap time little one?" "Stop doing that, you know im not a little." I see him whip out his phone. 'Who's he texting' I continue eating quickly. I finish and throw my trash away. I grab my bag and tried to run but was caught by binds. "Hold on now. It's scary for a little to be walking around in a crowded place alone. I'll take you back." He walks closer to me as I try to undo his binds. Just as I break free, he's already picking me up in his arms. He starts to take me back to the daycare. No matter how hard I hit him, he didn't let me go. We get to the door and cementoss is already waiting for me. "Toshi it's not nice to sneak out like that". Aizawa lets me go and I couldn't help but cry. 'This is so embarrassing' . My back hits the wall and I slide down, knees to my chest, face in my palms. "How come he doesn't want to be here?", asked aizawa.  Cementoss begins to explain my "situation", " you see Toshi is a little but he doesn't want to be one. He's never regressed before so it's hard to adjust to it at a late age like this." As he explains more and more to aizawa, I look up at the ceiling praying that the embarrassment would be over soon.