SECRET

01

SAKARI

"Oh my god, don't stop." I moaned grabbing at Chido's back.

He planted his hands down firmly into the queen sized mattress. Breathing heavily, with loud grunts as he gave me deep, 9 inch strokes. He looked down me with passion and admiration in his eyes. Every few seconds he would lean down and mask my moans with a soft kiss.

"Shit," Chido said quickly jumping out of me quickly. "Stop it Sakari." He said making me smile.

"I'm not doing anything." I said looking away.

I like teasing Chido when I know he's close to finishing. I use kegel exercises to tighten myself around him to see how long he can last. He never lasts long once I do the that.

"You want me to nut in you?" Chido asked me.

"No," I said putting him back inside of me. "I don't care," I truthfully answer.

"Mm you feel so good." Chido moaned as he went back to pleasing me.

I wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Fuck—oh shit— I'm about to cum." I moan into his ear.

He picked up his pace and used one of his hands to push my stomach down. My mouth dropped open as my orgasm began to flow over me. Chido let out a loud grunt and I felt him cumming inside of me. He leaned down and kissed me as we finished together.

"Damn." Chido said laying next to me.

"Damn is right." I said putting my hand on his chest. "I wish we had time for another round." I said sitting up.

I reach over to the nightstand and grabbed my phone.

"Kadeem and Devale will be back with the kids soon." I tell Chido.

He chuckled and shook his head.

"You know we're getting a little too grown to be sneaking around-"

"It's not permanent." Sakari said. "It's just I told my parents I was focus on finishing school and that I'm not looking for anything right now." I said looking at Chido.

He started giving me those puppy dog eyes. I put my phone down and slid over to be closer to him.

"You know I like you Sakari. I don't wanna keep being a secret." Chido said looking into my eyes.

"I'll be ready soon. I promise." I reassure him.

I'm not lying. I don't plan on keeping our relationship a secret. I like Chido a lot, more than he knows. But, ending my engagement left me heartbroken. I don't wanna go through that again. I also don't wanna make anyone feel that pain. Which is why I'm not trying to hurt Chido. I just need more time.

"Give me a kiss so I can go downstairs." Chido said grabbing my face.

I leaned in and kissed him with a peck. Then we started making out. I looked away and licking my lips at the taste of him.

"Go get out." I said pushing him out the bed.

He got up and put his clothes on. He smooched his lips one last time before sneaking out.

"Bye." I said shaking my head and laughing.

I got out the bed and showered, washing Chico's scent off of me was harder than I expected.

CHIDO

"What you doing man!" Devale yelled at the basketball game on the TV.

I sat back and scrolled through Sakari and I's text messages. Trying to figure out when all of this even started. One minute we were talking at Crystal's birthday party and the next you know we're in a hotel room together. Nothing happened the first night we spent together but that second night, well that's a different story.

October, 2023

"Chido I didn't know you were so cool." Sakari said sitting in the she of the hotel bed.

"There's a lot you don't about me." I told her.

She turned her head and looked at me.

"Mhm like what?" She asked me.

"Why should I tell you anything?" I asked making a joke.

She stood up and walked over to me. She stood over me as I sat on the bed. She put her hands on my thighs and leaned down so we were face to face.

"Tell me everything and I'll tell you everything." Her words wrapped around my ears and I quickly fell into her trap.

•••

"Chido!"

"Huh? Oh my bad. What's up?" I ask Devale.

"What you over there thinking about he asked me?"

"Nothing man. Just stuff." I said waving him off. "I got a question tho, what does it mean when a woman says she's wants to be serious but doesn't show you any effort?" I ask turning to him.

Devale looked at me and chuckled.

"Woman troubles? Cool." He said sitting up. "Usually when they say that, they want you to be all up on them just to feel good. If you start dating someone else she's gonna go crazy." Devale told me.

That sounds about right.

I mentioned another girl to Sakari and he cut me off completely. It took her almost a week to talk to me again. Even though Sakari and I aren't dating I still wanna respect her. I put the ball in her court and hope that one day she'll take me seriously the way I want to be taken seriously.

"So should I stop sleeping with her?" I ask Devale.

He shrugged. "If you guys can keep that boundary between the two of you then go ahead. But if feelings are involved it's gonna get sticky." He told me.

"Yeah I know. But the sex is so good I'm scared that when we try to get into a relationship it won't be any good." I said shaking my head.

"That's not true. If two people really wanna make it work, they'll make it work no matter how the relationship started out." Devale said.

I looked at the big theater screen and nodded.

"So who is this girl?" Devale asked me.

I let out and chuckle. "Nobody." I simply replied.

Devale didn't ask again we spent the night watching the game and not bringing up the topic of women. It didn't matter though, all I could think about was Sakari and the love we make to each other within our loveless relationship.