My Second Life

1:-Shivi's life

Today's morning is the new day for everyone but for shivi... it's an another day of her life with suffering her that old chest pain and breathing problem,she woke up at 7:35Am but she's still feeling the pain in her chest and still facing breathing problem, every night she lay down on her bed for sleeping while thinking that

"When I'll wake-up in the morning I'll be fully healthy"

Every night she prays to God to make her problematic life dream,she prays to God every night that when she wake-up in the next morning she'll be fully healthy, she don't want to feel any pain on her chest,she wants to breathing easily and wants to eat everything she loves.

But every morning shows her reality of her life,that she's born in lower middle class family of India that's why they are not capable to go to another country to gain treatment,

This morning is also not different from other mornings of her life,she wake-up and checking herself by breathing heavily that if she still facing a breathing problem or not and she is still facing a chest pain or not in the hope of maybe that suffering era was just a bad dream of her but unfortunately this is the truth of her life, she's still facing breathing problem and still feeling pain in her chest,

Her whole body was getting thin and looking like there is only skin on her bones,her eyes got smaller and looking yellowish in colour because of low quantity of hemoglobin in her body,her lips was dry and we can see the cracks clearly,the small quantity of blood was coming out from those cracks,she wanted to drink water,then she called her father,

"Papa.."

Her voice came out from her throat with great difficulty,her voice was too hoarse, after hearing her word "papa" her father quickly came to her and for hearing her what his daughter wants bring his ear near her mouth,and she slowly said,

"Water.."

Her father quickly went for bring the water from the kitchen and help her to drink it,

There was a good smell coming from the kitchen,shivi was thinking,

"maybe there is cooking something tasty,if i were able to eat that then I'll gonna eat it all alone"

,and praying in her mind that,

"I also want to eat and drink , I hope this nightmare will quickly end from my life"

Shivi was a bright student in her school and she was the head girl of the school,she was a active person who was good in everything in every activities but after that slowly - slowly she was getting sick , firstly she suffered with typhoid and after that many types of digestive infections, because of this slowly - slowly she's getting absent from the class,she was not able to attend the classes or do studies that's why her rank was dropping in studies and she didn't able hangout with her friends because of her health issues, because of this her friends also getting cutting of from her friends circle,once upon a time she was centre of the attention but this is the time where everyone is saying that,

"She is always sick"

And most of people feeling pity for her,she likes a boy and talks with him but atlast he also broke up with her just because of her health issues,she loose her friends,study,job,love just because of her health issues,

She was remembering that moment when she was only 16 years old and going to give her 12th class exams,she was thinking about her future that what things she wants to do in her future,she wanted to get a job as soon as possible in three years after her 12th class exams and help her parents,she wanted to give a gold chain to her mother from her first sallery and wanted to take her father to aeroplane ride and wanted to give a iPhone to her elder sister and her brother and wanted to install airconditioner in the house,

But everything is broken, and infact her family is struggling with her and most of money is going for her medicine and treatment that's why she was feeling more sad and broken,

She was being like a stone because of pain in her heart thinking because her family was also suffering with her,and she loose all her hopes,

She was a strong girl ,she never gave up on anything but she was suffering with these problems from past 12 years and she was looking her classmates doing jobs and marrying and having children but she's laying on her bed and make her family suffer with her,this thing broke her down, that's why she loose all hopes,

Every morning comes with bring new things and new stories for everyone but for shivi that all morning was same painful and comes with suffering,

Shivi every night thank to God that atleast they give her good lovable and caring family who loves her so much and ready to do everything for her,this is the only thing that about shivi thank to the God every night and day,

Shivi thinks if she'll be healthy like others,then she is doing any good job and taking care of her parents and making them proud and also thinks that,

"I also want to marry and i also want to be pregnant and give birth a child,i also want to feel how it feels like"

But life didn't give her a chance,she also have a right to live a normal life and feeling these things,these emotions,

The innocent girl also thinks that,

"Many bad people don't have right to live like this but they all are living good and happy life but why me..?"

The innocent girl facing those problems and suffering from those situations without doing anything bad and without harm anyone..the innocent girl asking questions to herself and her God,

But the innocent small soul loosing her hopes and who always tried to be strong,now she's being weak and saying to her father,

"Papa please save me"

And the helpless father was frozen and just crying because his helplessness and seeing his strongest daughter asking help to him,his body got numb and mind got blank he quickly hold his daughter's hand and saying,

"I'm here with you baby why are you scaring..?..you are my strongest child then if you'll loose hopes then what will i gonna do baby ..be strong my baby"

He was saying those words while crying with a broken heart and with broken words,he was totally feeling broken from inside that's why he was not able to say those words clearly,he knows that his daughter is going through how much pain and suffering s,

Her whole family was sitting around her holding her hands , all four family members was broken and crying..they all are broken but giving strength to her by saying,

"stay strong shivi baby..we are with you baby..you are not alone.. everything will be fine"

And shivi understood that this is the last time when she is watching her family member's face,she was looking at them quietly, drops of tears dropping continuously from her eyes,and atlast she close her eyes to feel no other pain and breathing problem,she leaved her body..

Finally this suffering era is over..