Faye and Yoko OS

seek and hide (part one)

little warning : Yoko pov is a little different and she sometimes seem mean but it's explain why in the read.

It's friday, Dr Sulax has one patient left  before the meeting with Faye and her new  girlfriend at a café.

LUX POV :

 Finally i'm going to meet her, Fai talk endlessly about the one she's in love with.

"Dr Sulax, can Ms Apasraa  enter?"

"Yes let her comes in " 

Now in my cabinet, Ms Apasra sit  comfortably on the sofa putting  the pillow for covering her laps.

"How are you since last friday? Everything go well with your partner? " i ask seating on my favorite comfy seat.

"Yes everything is fine, the only problem is the same.  i Haven't told  her yet. For my condition" 

"The relationship is fresh, i don't think you need. For now" She nods but i can say she's not convinced. 

"And also keep in mind It is not something to be ashamed with" i say to give her confidence.

"Easy to say Ma'am" She sigh "it's actually pretty hard willing being "normal" with her. Althought the extra attention she gives me, I need a stop for my negatives thoughts. She is kind hearted and it's the reason why i don't want her to be involved in my whole goddamn grey-red world.  I must protect her from That."

" But it's me. And again negatives points." she sighs . Okay no she is not doing well.

The patient  who usually optimist apart all the depressed episodes manages to put atleast one positive view.

I know how her crises come, it's when a new person enter her life. i'm also surprised of how long the crise didn't show for almost 2 months her state were well. Miss Apasra suffers depression, it's roots with her scholarship. Since grade 1 She had some difficulties such as learning and retaining informations or struggle with social skills .In her childhood, she used to not say  when she didn't  understand the lessons or the instructions .A couple of years later she is diagnosed . Yoko Apasra is dyspraxic. 

"Do you still have your pills with you ? " she nods

"What's the rate this time ?" She smiled rolling her eyes. She usually do that when she plans a naughty comment. I'm used to it already, i've been her therapist for 2 years.

 She is funny and delicate such a good person, unfortunatly her depression can let her see how kind and lovely she is . And beside that, bonding a friendship outside the cabinet is not professional.

"4/10 " 

"Really, why that ?" i respond deadpan

"There is no morphine, if i can't drunk please at least allow me get high " A laugh excape my mouth. " please note this one " she add pointing my notebook 

"ok i write it down, please for all doctors lets her be high for her relax time" I pretend  writting.

We laugh a little bit then she asked me. "After that session what do you do? Work again?"

"Yes Miss" i lied i know she don't want having a boundarie between patient / doctor but that's how it works.

"Please atleast call me Yoko "

"Yoko what do you plan this evening ?"  

"I go diner at my favorite place with my girlfriend and her bestfriend."

YOKO POV <before and at the cabinet

"I'm tired of this feeling of fighting endlessly. Depressed, what do I know.Anxiety takes its place over time. I dwell on embarrassing moments. I fear revealing part of my vulnerability. I have to keep smiling to help hide the dark part of me."