Relentlessly Yours [Completed]

Chapter 24

Nicola, Age Twenty Six
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My skin prickled in awareness from someone's attention, pulling me forcibly from my deep slumber. Someone was watching me. I could feel it.

Alam mo 'yong tipong ang sarap ng tulog mo tapos bigla ka lang na magigising sa madaling araw dahil pakiramdam mo ay may nakamasid sa'yo? And then you'd wake up only to find no one in your dark room.

Nagsimulang tumibok ng mabilis ang puso ko at hindi ko mawari kung bakit kinakabahan ako.

Chest pounding, I finally gave in and slowly opened my eyes and true enough, Kai sat on the white feathery single couch beside my bed with a grim expression.

Agad na nagtaka ako kung bakit nakatitig siya sa akin ng ga'non. My mind immediately recalled how he licked and ate me out until I passed out. Me screaming his name in pleasure. Him making happy noises as he tirelessly feasted on me.

So, why is he looking like he just lost the lottery? Or worse, like someone just died?

I squinted, my eyebrows wrinkling and then my breath hitched when I realized that his eyes were wet.

Wet. Kai's eyes were wet. With tears? Yeah, it definitely looked like he was in tears. His eyes were a bit red, too.

Why? Why was he in such pain? I never saw him cry. Ever.
Hindi ko mapigilang mataranta. Oh, god. My Kai was crying. Why was he crying?

My hand reached out, wanting to take away his pain on impulse. He flinched, when my palm touched his cold cheeks.

I shivered lightly due to the cold air coming from the AC. My brain sobbered when it occured to me why he looked the way he did.

I was naked. On my bed. With nothing on. In plain sight. In the natural light of the early afternoon.

Which means that he saw. He saw everything.

Mas lalo akong nanlamig at biglang nagising lalo ang diwa ko nang mas naging klaro sa akin ang sitwasyon. Sumama ang tiyan ko ng hindi ko maintindihan. Pakiramdam ko ay masusuka ako sa hiya.

I scrambled to cover myself with a blanket but his firm hand stopped and held my wrist.

Puno ng kuryusidad na tiningnan ko siya at agad na nanigas nang makita ko kung saan nakapako ang mga mata niya.

Agad na nanginig ang kalamnan ko. I tried to hug myself to hide my body from his eyes but he tightend his hold on my wrist and then moved my palm up, baring the scars to his stunned and horrified eyes.

"L-Let go of me," mahinang usal ko at iniwas ang mata sa kanya.

Oh my god. He could see everything. Gusto kong lumubog sa matinding kahihiyan. I was ashamed and disgusted by the scars on my body and I wouldn't blame him if he is, too.

"C-Calliope," garalgal ang boses na agaw niya sa atensyon ko at natigilan ako nang masaksihan ko ang pagpatak ng luha niya.

Parang may pumipiga sa puso ko habang nanginginig ang mga daliri na hinaplos niya ang maliliit na peklat sa tiyan at loob ng mga hita ko. The remembrance I got from cutting myself three years ago. They were faint, almost unnoticeable because the cuts were fortunately not deep but with the light streaming from all angles in my room, anyone with good eyesight could distinguish them right away.

"C-Calliope..tell me you didn't..."

Sabay ng pagpatak ng luha ko ang pag iwas ko ng tingin sa kanya. I was filled with shame. He was not supposed to see them. He was never supposed to see them. Kinagat ko ng mariin ang labi at itinuon ang mga mata sa pader sa gilid niya.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so fucking sorry, baby," he chanted desperately, it almost felt weird and unnatural to hear Kai's voice in that tone, helpless and desperate.