(discontinued) bambi | gyuricky chatfic

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Ricky 💌

heyyy

good morning !

slept well?

probably not :(

yk i thought about you all night

maybe pretending as bambi was a bad idea ☹️

i wish you could hear me out at least

i care for you too much

what are you doing rn?

ik you are reading these ricky :(

are you eating well?

please remember to eat, hmm?

do you want me to come over?

i just want you to know that i'm truly sorry for my actions :<

i love you

you know that, right?

🩵

GYUVIN'SLOVELIFE 💅💁

guys :(
he's still mad at me

kimjiwoong
i mean logically he should be

canadaoppa
hyung!
we're supposed to help gyuvin rn 😭

kimjiwoong
yeah ik but i was opposing this plan from the very start

i should've listened to you 🥲
but you know....
when i realised that he didn't recognise me, i couldn't bring myself to reveal my true identity

kimzhanghao
yeah we heard about this a hundred times now, gyuvin 💀

hao hyung!
you're supposed to support me 🥹

kimzhanghao
as much as i want to, ricky is still really upset at you

AAHHH
i feel really guilty, okay?
i wish i could change the past but obviously i can't :(

yujinni._07
hyung, why don't you explain everything to ricky hyung properly?

isn't it kinda insincere to explain everything by text?

gunw00kpark
then ig go to his apartment?

wouldn't he be mad...?

gunw00kpark
he's still mad anyway

canadaoppa
texting is still fine i guess
just give it a go gyu

hambeen
yeah i mean i confessed matt thru text back then

canadaoppa
yes i rmbr > <
you were all nervous and hesitant 🥺

hambeen
aww you rmbr bby 🫶

yujinni._07
you guys are honestly worse than hao hyung and jiwoong hyung

LMFAOO YOURE SO RIGHT

gunw00kpark
bitch you go and explain everything to ricky 💀

oh right sorry
WISH ME LUCK GUYS 🫶

hambeen
good luck !! <3 — from me and matt btw :D

yujinni._07
cringey mfs

kimzhanghao
language!

Ricky 💌

hii

i'm here to annoy you again /jk

i think it's the best that i explain myself properly

including every thing that had happened in the past year and how i felt and why i used another identity

so let's start, okay?

so....

y'know after i broke up with you back then? at first i was like doing really fine. i felt exactly the way i wanted to feel after finally being single

i was having the time of my life. i often went to hang out with my friends after class. i attended college parties, i was socialising and at the same time i could maintain my academics pretty well. overall, it was the life i craved.

obviously i also missed you a lot of times but i valued my 'freedom' more

but then a few months went by, right? and gradually, the happiness i found in my single era was drifting away. when i saw my friends get into relationships, giving time to their significant others and... and it made me realise that i needed you more than anything

for starters, i had NEVER NOT loved you

i always was in love w you but i concluded that love was trapping me

that's why i broke up

but the love was always there yk? and i desperately needed you back. but how could i just go back and apologise to you after i hurt you like that?

trust me baby, when you were crying that night, my heart was torn apart. my tears were also threatening to fall

back to the story. so as i said, when i realised i needed you back, i denied my heart and went on blind dates

none worked out

i was torn, broken, depressed and desperate

and then what happened? suddenly i hear that hao hyung is throwing a party for close friends

obviously jiwoong hyung was going. and i figured that you'd be there too. so, i practically begged jiwoong hyung to convince hao hyung to invite me as well

after days of begging, i finally got my ass in that party and gosh... the moment i saw you, my heart melted on spot

it's like i finally got my happiness back? i felt so alive, so in love after seeing you smile and laugh with your friends

and i vowed to myself that i would not chicken out anymore and face the consequences myself

but the moment i texted you? you didn't recognise me, i figured that you probably deleted it and it was the perfect opportunity tbh

so i acted impulsive and really, came up with the whole bambi thing on spot

later i confessed to hao hyung about the fake identity and we decided that it'd be the best to keep going like that and later tell you the truth one day

even gunwook knew too after sometime

but i didn't think you'd get hurt like this :(

please just know that i never meant to betray you like that, okay?

i love you 🩵