Explanation of the book [TPOT AU]

Journal entry No.1

[⚠️Drug mention]

Hello, hi. I'm Book and you're my diary. (or journal) Well for now you are. So recently I've been having these weird dreams and I'll be writing in you whenever I get another one. I didn't want to write them on myself because that would be too easy for others to access.
So I'm going to explain how they appeared in the first place. Someone (probably someone who is a huge fan of Bfdi) sent me this book knowing that I am one. It's weird, I am scared. When I opened it there was a very detailed description of death and it gave every contestant blood that easily came out. Immediately after I finished it I threw up and started crying. I'll be attempting to tell you about my nightmares.
This first one I don't remember much. It was about me getting kidnapped, tortured and then running into Pencil who killed me. (Not for real, hopefully.) It was so horrifying, it was like she was slicing me.
And then I had another dream about me as not myself but Leafy? She We were supposingly invited to a party planned by Two. (just like in the book) Instead of being with my own team I ended up with Team8s and Firey. Although like his relationship with Leafy, ours is less negative now but that is only because I don't talk to him. I don't know how he views me now, and I don't care. Fuck him and gelatin alike. Why did we ever think about including them?
Where was I, oh yeah. People knew that I wasn't Leafy but I didn't. (Very confusing I know) And then I ran away and saw Pencil again and her bitchy girlfriend— (girlfriend in the friend way I highly doubt either of them are sapphic or Atleast Match isn't, Pencil has vibes but when I mentioned my interest in women she just gave me a weird look, said that she expected that from me, and rolled her eyes.) —doing drugs, I don't know, I don't do drugs! Then I got kidnapped again by my old teammates and friends out of all people and killed by Ice Cube. I would talk about how I miss them but I'm running out of room.

Book