use yourself as a poison

chapter 9

The light in Bai Luo’s eyes disappeared little by little, and he was lying on the bed like a rag doll, motionless.

　　Chi Yan looked at the person below him, feeling a sense of melancholy in his heart.

　　Chi Yan didn’t like Bai Luo looking at him with such despairing eyes.

　　Bai Luo looked at his eyes, obviously they should be full of admiration.

　　Even if he unreservedly showed his disgust.

　　He should still love himself.

　　It was like countless nights, the two of them were entangled on the bed.

　　No matter how much he humiliated him, Bai Luo would still carefully please him, for fear that he would not favor him.

　　This man is so cheap.

Just like a pug, you can’t get rid of it no matter how hard you push it.

　　Every time he looked at his eyes, there was always a hint of admiration and flattery.

　　Even if he stepped on his dignity, he would take off his  clothes and climb onto his bed, begging himself to fuck him.

　　Although Chi Yan kept saying that he hated Bai Luo.

　　But he also had to admit that the obsession in Bai Luo’s eyes when he looked at him filled his body and mind with joy.

　　Chi Yan always thought that he hated men, but when he was with Bai Luo, he felt great satisfaction.

　　It’s as if their bodies are naturally compatible…

　　Even every time Bai Luo fell asleep, he would carefully say “My lord, I like you…”

　　Although Chi Yan mocked Bai Luo in his heart overreaching.

But he felt those words reached his heart…

　　But now, why didn’t Bai Luo look at him with such admiring eyes?

　　His eyes were so empty. It’s like losing your soul…

　　and saying every sentence that you want to leave.

　　Chi Yan is not used to Bai Luo like this.

　　He squeezed Bai Luo’s chin with his hands, forcing him to say such words.

　　”Say you like me. You will never leave me… just like you said before.”

Bai Luo finally raised his eyes and glanced at Chi Yan.

　　My heart was instantly filled with bitterness.

　　Of course he likes Chi Yan.

　　I like it so much that I can give him my life.

　　He had also whispered such words in Chi Yan’s ear countless times when he was asleep.

　　He thought that Chi Yan didn’t know, but he didn’t expect that he knew everything…

　　But now, he couldn’t like it anymore.

　　His life is running out, he can’t live long, it is impossible to stay by Chi Yan’s side for the rest of his life.

　　Bai Luo knew that he was not qualified, but he didn’t want to see Chi Yan with someone else at the last moment of his life…

　　Bai Luo looked at Chi Yan with red eyes, and insisted:

　　”My lord, please Lay down your

　　subordinates and leave.” Seeing that Bai Luo was still saying such words, Chi Yan burst into anger in his heart.

　　He knew that the guard had begun to take pride in favor.

　　Did he think that he would start to value him after saying such words of refusal and welcome?

Chi Yan wanted to take off the ugly mask on Bai Luo’s face.

　　His eyes fell on Bai Luo’s wrist, on which was a small string of red beads, a gadget that Chi Yan casually threw to Bai Luo.

　　Chi Yan still remembered the way Bai Luo couldn’t put it down when he held this string of beads that day.

　　Sure enough, a servant is a servant, even such a small thing that is given to him casually, he can treat it as a treasure.

　　”Do you know what I’m doing with Yun Nian today? I’ll take you to see it.”

　　Chi Yan brought Bai Luo to a room, and the room was full of birthday presents, all kinds of gifts.

　　”I’m going to give this to Yun Nian on her birthday. As long as she likes it, I can give her anything. But what about you?” Chi Yan glanced at Bai Luo’s wrist, and pointed his foot at his

　　wrist stepped on.

　　”Bai Luo, what do you think you are? You are just the cheapest male favorite. I advise you not to challenge my patience again and again. There are countless people in this world who are willing to make medicine poison for me. Don’t think that, You are the only one!

　　Let me tell you, a servant is a servant, don’t try to compete with your master for favor. From now on, you should behave a little better for me, and don’t try to get my attention by leaving words.” Chi Yan said

　　this If so, he retracted his feet.

　　In fact, he didn’t use much force, but it was probably because the string of beads in Bai Luo’s hand was worn for too long, the rope was already a little fragile, and it broke suddenly.

　　Those round beads were scattered everywhere in an instant, Bai Luo tremblingly looked at these things, his fingers were trembling.

　　He subconsciously knelt on the ground and picked up those beads one by one.

　　I just felt something crack in my heart…

　　Chi Yan didn’t know, but the day he gave this string of beads to Bai Luo happened to be Bai Luo’s birthday.

　　Bai Luochang has never received a birthday present from anyone at his age.

　　The gift he received for the first time was actually given to him by Chi Yan, and he was really indescribably happy that day.

　　Although Chi Yan didn’t know it, this so-called gift was thrown to him casually.

　　But Bai Luo has been happy for a long time because of this.

But now, Chi Yan insisted on telling him blatantly that this gift, which he regarded as a treasure, was so worthless compared to what Shen Yun read.

　　Just like him, he’s also terribly cheap.

　　Tears were uncontrollable at all, rolling in Bai Luo’s eyes, they might fall down at any moment.

　　Chi Yan looked at the person in front of him coldly.

　　Look at his pale face.

　　He thought to himself: He already knew that Bai Luo was faking it.

　　How could he not like himself?

　　It’s just a trick he wants to refuse and welcome.

　　only.

　　Now he has exposed Bai Luo’s lie, and also proved that he was just faking it.

　　But why looking at the man in front of him in such a state of embarrassment, he didn’t feel a little happy in his heart.