I hate that I cling to you still
Like we never we apart
Probably because you took advantage of my young heart
No this isn't about an ex love
It's about somebody I thought I could trust
I was just three when you left me
And my mom in the dust
How can I love someone who does that
Maybe I've grown up
Matured and realized
That I was probably a mistake
But hell
Life sure has been a wild ride
Oh oh oh
I've accepted this new life
Growing up and getting older
I can't let you hold me down
Can't let you hold me down
Growing up isn't about age
It's about realizing you weren't the issue
Its about learing from the past
Leaving all the shit behind
I've accepted my past
Now it's time to move on
I hate that I still force myself to see you
I'm sick of lying
But I don't want you to know all
Of the truth
Of how I wanted to be dead so many times
Cried myself to sleep
Because I wasn't like the other kids in church
Maybe I've grown up
Matured and realized
That I was probably a mistake
But hell
Life sure has been a wild ride
Oh oh oh
I've accepted this new life
Growing up and getting older
I can't let you hold me down
Can't let you hold me down
Growing up isn't about age
It's about realizing you weren't the issue
Its about learing from the past
Leaving all the shit behind
I've accepted my past
Now it's time to move on
And I still hate how I cry myself to sleep
On those nights where my thoughts
Wont shut up
I still hate that I won't have the
White picket fence perfect family
Like the other kids in church
I was raised around people
Who said divorce was wrong
Oh but I was safer
Without him there
Oh I was better off
Without him present
Growing up isn't about age
It's about realizing you weren't the issue
Its about learing from the past
Leaving all the shit behind
I've accepted my past
Now it's time to move on
I've been told I'm safer
I guess that's true
But part of getting to acceptance
Is the denial that still lingers
