I love you. { + SEUNGJIN + }

CHAPTER 1

JOURNAL ENTRY #1

Hm. I don't really know how to start this. At all. But I Journals still seem kind of stupid, if you ask me personally. But here I am, writing in one. It's kind of like talking to yourself but in a way a seventh-grade girl would who just got broken up with by her 8th boyfriend of the year. Anyway, I have been eying this one boy at my school basically all year since freshmen year and I still haven't fessed up nor made any progress with our current friendship.. or non-existent friendship actually. We don't even talk. I only have a singular class with him, and I just see him around the school campus. Everywhere. It's already junior year and I only really have senior year left to make an attempt at this. And I may or may not bug Minho and Chan hyung for his number. Daily. 5:42pm after school. Whenever Minho hyung is lying in his bed with his socks still on and his baby blue covers pulled over him up to his belly button. He's probably texting Jisung as I write these pathetic words down onto this ugly ass paper. Okay! That's enough for me now! I really need to get over this small little crush, however. God.

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Seungmin sighed as he gently slammed the journal's cover closed and setting down the inky, black pen on his desk. He took a grasp of one of his desk's drawers handles and slid it open, before sliding the brand-new chocolate brown colored journal into it and practically putting all his force to close it. Seungmin began walking towards his closet to grab a fresh pair of clothes and head off to the shower after doing his daily little eight times of crying in the stinky little itty bitty school young gentlemen's bathrooms to let it all out. School was extremely stressful. Especially because he went to a pretty gifted and rigorous preparatory high school, so it just made things worse. Seungmin knew he had a shit load of work to do after taking this small break. He just wished he could quit sometimes but he just can't. 

He's already known as that one nerdy, smart student around campus for how much effort he puts into his classes and the fact he's above in almost all classes so it would be really odd if he just stopped. Seungmin also tried very hard to get into this school so it wouldn't be very smart or good to stop trying and probably get kicked out. He just can't get enough of that feeling whenever you do something good academically. Seungmin just always feels like he needs to try harder. Seungmin's parents are really proud of  Seungmin's hard work and progress in his life, but it isn't quite enough for Seungmin anymore. He doesn't know what's missing in his life. He has a decent amount of personal money, he's practically perfect within the academics, good friends, proud parents, a bit on the rich side of life, and a whole lot of other things. Seungmin has spent so much time on academics although throughout his entire academic curriculum, he hasn't thought about any other thing. Now he's in his junior year and there's really no more time left if he actually likes this one boy. 

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After Seungmin showered, he decided to just hop on his phone for a whole long while to talk to his stupid ass friends who might not even be awake at this time of the morning. As in 1am. Sharp. Although maybe Jisung would be. 

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I Ate Seungmin's Ass

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seungmin
Uppisy daisies. I'm bored. Someone help me for fucks sake.
btw if you dont come online im gonna stop going to
school

pity squirrel  
Bitch. What are you doing
awake at this time. its 1 in the
morning..

yucky sunshine
Jisung why are you awake
That's my question 💕