fusion in love | jongsan

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"your aura filled the air with tension as you walked in, resulting in my eyes resting on your figure as you walked through the room."

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jongho

today was a great day so far, the weather is cooling, i woke up on the right side of the bed this morning and i was so ready for a new semester. university wasn't all rainbows and sunshines of course, i had my fair share of rainy days but i got through them.

i was rummaging through my locker placing my books inside when i heard the honey-like voice calling my name from afar. i gave a small smile to myself before closing my locker and was met with my best friend, kang yeosang.

"jjongie! it's been so long, how have you been?" yeosang asked me, eyes shining.

"it's only been a few weeks sang-ah, and i've been fine." i replied laughing.

"still! i couldn't bare sitting at home all day and you wouldn't want to leave your house!" he complained.

i playfully rolled my eyes at him before walking away, him following behind me. it was true, i didn't want to leave my house. i stayed home during those three weeks of our break and spent my time studying, i had no desire whatsoever to go out and "have fun". call me lame.

yeosang and i entered our classroom and sat down next to each other. yeosang started rambling on about how his break went and how his mother wouldn't get off his back asking him to clean his room. i wasn't really paying attention, until i felt the air in the room shift. my eyes averted to the direction of the door and there he was.

choi san.

i quickly turned my head towards the front as i didn't want to face him. san has been my long time crush. i don't even remember what made me like him, he was a jerk to almost everyone. compared to me, san was a little taller than i was and his body was big and he had broad shoulders. to top it all off, he always had a resting face that made him look intimidating. san, along with his group of friends, were motorcyclists and were members of a gang, led by one of san's friends, hongjoong. they would get into fights with other gangs and most days, there were bruises and scars on their faces. it's gotten so normal the teachers gave up on asking them questions.

i on the other hand, was short and chubby. i was shy and reserved. i don't do anything but study, that's all i really do. i try not to get too involved with other people, i don't like drama nor do i like trouble. you can say san and i are opposite of each other.

"jjong-ah, are you even listening to me?" yeosang's voice brought me out of my trance.

"h-huh? sorry. i wasn't listening.." i guiltily admitted.

yeosang sighed but with one look on my face, he turned around to san's direction. his face immediately lightened up and turned back to me with a smile.

"what?" i asked him.

"you really gotta ask him out jjong." he replied giggling.

"are you crazy?! he doesn't even know me!" i whisper-yelled back to him.

he just giggled and turned to the front as our teacher walked in after the bell rang.

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san

the bell for lunch finally rang. god, the last few classes could've been close to hell. i quickly packed my bag and headed to the cafeteria where my friends were waiting. i sat with them and let out an exhausted sigh.

"gee bro, you look dead." seonghwa laughed at me.

"thanks. i didn't know." i replied sarcastically.

they just laughed and we started talking and eating. while doing so, my eyes spotted him.

choi jongho.

jongho was a boy in my class, i'm aware. but something about him attracted me. was it his looks? i mean he was good looking. his personality? he's shy, his only friend is that guy with bright green hair. although he has many other friends, jongho seems to be his closest. they only ever hung out with each other. jongho gave off a cute vibe despite his reserved personality. i've observed him long enough to know that. i'm not creepy, just observant.

"san, you've been staring at that guy for five minutes. if he sees you he'll call you creepy" my friend wooyoung snapped me back to reality.

"yeah dude, is he like your crush or something?" yunho asked curious.

a crush? was it weird to have a crush on a guy as a guy? i don't know.

i just cleared my throat and looked at them.

"i was just looking at him, got a problem?" i asked raising my eyebrow.

my friends shook their heads and right then the bell rang. i bid my goodbyes to my friends and walked to class. i hope i get out of this hellhole soon.

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san

finally, it was time to go home. i packed my bag and stretched my body before heading out. i went out to my motorcycle and while i was putting on my helmet, i spotted jongho. he was standing by a car and a man was shouting at him through the driver seat window. he was looking around as everyone else was staring at them and i could see the visible tears in his eyes. not that i didn't care, maybe i didn't, i just shrugged it off and got on my motorcycle.

upon reaching home, i took a long warm shower. first days sure are exhausting. i sighed as i laid down on my bed. my head shot to my right side as i heard my phone ding, indicating that someone had texted me. i picked up my phone and looked at the message that was sent by wooyoung.

"sleeping?" the text message said.

"no. just got out of the shower." i replied.

"great, let's meet at the park tomorrow morning. i wanna go to school with everyone hehe."  wooyoung typed back.

i just replied with a thumbs up emoji and turned off my phone. a nap sounded really good right about now. and that's what i did, i sighed and closed my eyes. slowly drifting into dreamland.