fusion in love | jongsan

XI

"let's stay together forever."

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san

it had been a month since jongho and i got together, everything's great so far. that day, i got to find out that the person who beat him up was jaehyun and he had apparently switched schools because he couldn't live with the guilt of beating up a guy for seungcheol, who is out of jail because someone bailed him out.

"babe? san?" i heard someone calling out for me.

"hm?" i replied.

i turned to jongho who was looking at me worriedly and held my hand so we'd stop walking.

"you were daydreaming again.. i told you it isn't good to daydream while walking." he said.

"i'm sorry bear." i apologised.

he just smiled at me reassuringly and we continued walking.

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jongho

here i am, for the first time, meeting san's parents. or i guess i can say, their graves. san doesn't talk about his family nor has he ever mentioned that his parents were no longer around. he just stood, staring down at the graves of his parents that were placed side by side. i could tell he was holding in his tears, it's almost as if he felt that his parents didn't deserve to see him cry.

san sighed and turned to me, smiling.

"let's go?" he asked.

without any questions, i just nodded and we walked back to his motorcycle. when we started dating, he had bought me my own helmet even though i told him i was fine without one. i put on my helmet and sat behind him, wrapping my arms around his waist.

"your place or mine?" i asked when we arrived at the parking lot.

"let's go to yours." he replied.

i nodded and we walked together to the elevator. this is the quietest san has been ever since we started dating, i looked at him when we entered the elevator and it seemed like he was daydreaming again. at this moment, i didn't know what i should do. i've never seen san so distracted and he really insisted on seeing his parents today. i wanted to know what's gotten him so distracted but i didn't want to ask in case it was something personal.

"babe?" he called out.

"yes?" i replied.

"your key card, love."

"oh right, yes."

i unlocked the door and we went in, san immediately going into my room. i stared at him as he walked and sighed, i knew something was wrong because he always goes into my room and hug my pillow whenever he was feeling down. he said my scent calms him down and even though he could cuddle me instead, he didn't want to in case i felt uncomfortable even when i told him i was completely okay.

i went into my room to see him sitting on my bed and hugging my pillow while pouting. i smiled and sat next to him, holding his hand.