magnetic! [seungin ff]

7

TW: su!c!d3 attempt.

I leaned against the wall of the small storage room on the schools rooftop, where I could hear fan noises. up here, there were many water tanks and since it rained not too long ago, muddy, murky water residue was left.

the breeze was cooling and windy, a leaf slowly landed on my soft strands of hair. 

I've had enough of this life. I'm not even hoping to be reborn, much less to be remembered. I just want my soul to perish as if it has never existed, my body to jump down and somehow magically disappears so no one would make a big deal out of it.

i wished every single person who has ever caused him pain to receive it back, third fold. i didn't even bother to write a note to leave for someone to read over and over again while crying, because who would shed tears for me? 

no one. 

it's already proved that my own family doesn't adore me, so why would a random stranger do? 

"I feel fucking pathetic" I sobbed into my sleeve. "I'm sorry to whoever my soulmate is." I emerge from laying on the wall and move closer to the edge. 

reluctantly and painfully slowly, I lifted my foot and stood on the very edge of the school rooftop. I could clearly see the sunset, and it was a beautiful sight - what a shame. 

it made me want to live a little longer. 

but we all know I can't do that.