indecisive
normally i wouldn't think of you
however
this time i did
not once but twice
twice you crossed my mind
first it was before you showed
then, it was after you left
lately, indecisive is what comes to mind
when i think of you
i think of the battle for our breath
the battle i've yet to win
our silly fights that aren't real
but pretend. your laugh and your eyes
they make you special to me
off track. that's what this is
i don't want to think about
how you might
choose
her
her;
with her flawless skin
and her perfect grin
the one you've known less
the one you might want
why not? she's perfect
right?
wrong;
that should be me.
i make you laugh.
i make you smile.
me. not her
me
but most of all
i don't want to lose you
choose her and i fear for us
i fear our friendship
won't be the same
