Finding out you have cancer is a lot like walking up the stairs in the dark. you live your whole life knowing how many steps there are, then just when you think you're in the safe there's one more step and you trip and fall.
I sat in a daze for hours locked in my room, and as much as I know it probably wasn't the smartest thing to do I couldn't help it. This mornings doctors appointment was stuck on replay in my mind.
It started out with a drop on the book that I was reading, then that drop led to a steady flow. I wasn't to concerned because I have had nosebleeds in the past, but as the hour progressed and in bleeding didn't stop I got worried.
I walked down the hallway to my moms room and pushed in on the familiar wooden door that we had salvaged from an old farm house.
Just like I was, she was laying in her bed reading. When I told her about my problem she tried to hide her concern saying it was probably nothing but we should go have it checked on just to be safe. It's funny how you can only remember certain parts of events. like I don't remember the car ride there but I sure as hell remember the drop dead silence on the way home.
And I don't remember the examination all that well, but my moms quiet sobs as the doctor sympathetically told me I had acute myeloid leukemia has nicley etched its way into my mind.
I'm sure the feeling of ones life being over is common for someone who has just discovered they have cancer, but it felt as though my life and mine alone was over.
I had a plan though nothing is going to change none of my friends at school will know. I will play my part in the musical as always. And since I was practically invisibly already it wouldn't be hard to make my cancer invisible right?
YOU ARE READING
Amaranthine
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