Pain

Quit!

Pain
Chapter 22(Quit!)

#Mikasa’s POV#
I hopped into the car.
“Where are we going?”Rufus asked, not noticing my mood.
“Home of course. Momma says she misses me”
“Okay.”

I was deep in thought all along the two hour ride. I only noticed the car pulled up, but I was so lost that I thought he only pulled up to get fuel.

“We're here boss”His voice had me jolting from my thoughts. I replied,”oh. Y-yeah. I see”.
I got out of the car and went to the gate with my access card and used it to open the gate allowing Ruffy to zoom in, before I closed the gate and headed walked to the main building.

I built the house for Mum and Dad to their taste. The main building was well furnished in gray and a little silver. I had it erected beside the small gym also in the compound for them to work out on Saturdays. Beside the gym is the workers' quarters. And on the right hand side of the building is a basketball court; Dad was a big fan of basketball, when he was a teenager his dream was to grow up to be a basketball coach. Beside the basketball court is another building for guests.

At the front of the gate is a small chilling spot with a pool and a barbeque area for chilling out anytime, especially during summer since Mum loved summer vibes. I put a special place for me alone behind the building which is a small studio for me to practice whenever I'm home.

I walked into the building and entered the living room, the butler was there like he was expecting me. He gave me a warm smile and spoke to me calmly.

“Welcome home Miss. I'm delighted to see you. May I inform Mister and Mrs about your arrival?”
I smiled and replied, “sure. Do so, thanks”
“But would you need anything? Drink? I can tell the chefs to dish out something for you right away”He asked.
“No. I'm fine for now. I'll call you if I'm in need of anything”
He smiled and left.

Soon, a familiar warm but light scent danced into my nostrils as sounds of flip flops on the tiles filled my ears.
“Oh my gosh!”I heard a squeal as my eyes shot at Mum descending the stairs.

She was in a black shorts and white sleeveless silk singlet with a pink robe on top to cover up her body. Her pleasant scent filled the whole place as she approached me with Dad behind her.

“Mikasa!!”She exclaimed, she engulfed me in her warmth and after several seconds, she let go and sat. I also sat and smiled at Dad who was just staring at us.
“Momma”I said, still contemplating on what to say exactly.
“I missed you!”Her voice echoed through the room.
“Me too,”I replied.
“No you don't”
“Oh Momma, come on. I do”
“If you do, you should have atleast come over to check on your Dad and I. It's been months!! About tw- no, fiv- I mean eigh- I've lost count”
I chuckled, “Momma. You're so good at exaggeration”
“I think your Mother is right this time though. It's been a while  we've seen you,”Dada interrupted.
“FaceTime”
“Doesn't count”
“Yeah. I forgot the rules.”I laughed. “I've just been busy lately”
“whatever, Good thing you're here. I made your favourite. Carrot cake”Momma said.
“I'm not hungry Momma”
“Oh, then you should”
“Come on. This is family time, cherish it. Probably, you won't be around for months again so just cherish this time. You can't compare home food with those weird expensive foods you eat”
“Momma, I never came home for family time. I came home because I'm bored, I'm down. I need something to….. light me up and my mood”
“That is why we're here.”
“Oh, please don't”
“Listen, Mikasa. You don't have time for family time and now when you do you're not in for it. You're always busy with your career but think about your family. You hail from here. I'm starting to have a weird feeling about this career”
“What's that supposed to mean, Momma?”I shook my head.
“I- I'm not so sure if I want you to continue with this career. It's tearing the family apart. We're one. I-i know you enjoy doing this but you can also enjoy family. Plus, there are other things out there to enjoy, like college. This career is not only tearing us apart but steadily changing you, music deals with so much stuff, you know what I mean. And, you already know so many of these things. I-”

I cut her off, “Momma, please. What are you talking about?”
“I want you to quit”
“You want- m-”. I was so taken aback I couldn't even put down an accurate sentence.
“I- I'm sorry. I know you love it so much but I want the best for you and I need you to understand that. There are better things out there. College, teenage life, making friends, camping, being with family, going on holidays. A Lot! I just don't want my daughter to be a freak, you already know too much about these things in the music industry. I was watching one of your music videos and there was a girl having it in a car with a guy. I- it's- it's crazy how you even know so much within 2 years of being in the music industry. What if you stay foreve-”
There, my anger issues struck and made me cut her off with a thunderous yell.
“If I stay forever, the world won't come to an end!!” You know what Momma, you're just ungrateful and selfish. I've done everything!! Everything, everything for you, to make you happy and satisfied, just to get here and you still ask me to quit. You knew music was what I wanted and- and- fuck!!! What haven't I done for you, just name it”
She tried to get up to intimidate me but Dad held her arm. She said, “You never wanted music, never!!”. She shook her head vigorously, “I know my daughter. You always wanted to be a fashion designer and I was in support of that!!”
Those words pierce through my heart like a blade when realization hit me hard like an accelerating train, “You were never in support of my music?”My voice tore apart.
She was mute for a second, then I confirmed my answer. “I-”
“No, it's fine Momma. Now I know it was all a waste of time. All of it. Finishing high school at 13 and being the best academically to make you proud so you'll make me do music. Yes, I wanted fashion designing but that's a dream. Music is my talent, which I have a burning desire for. I'm glad you see it as a sin when I know about sex, but it's not a sin when you get your eyes rolled to the back of your head every night.... You know, you should be happy I wasn't the one having it in a car with that guy. You want me in college so bad? Great, consider me in college. Never give me a call, never!!! No texts! I'm gone for good”I said. I headed towards the door ignoring her calling my name, but then I halted when I touched the door knob. I spoke, “Also, the THING they were having in the car. That was just Photoshop. They aren't even humans”I said before exiting.

I ran as fast as my legs could carry me to the workers quatters with tears glimmering in my eyes blurring my vision. I fought back my tears, I wasn't ready to cry on my mascara. I couldn't just comprehend what was going on. Firstly, Everyone was against me, now my own Mother!! It punched a hole in my heart to recall those words she just said to me:

I was in support of that!!

I want you to quit!

But I want the best for you.

It's tearing the family apart.

I just don't want my daughter to be a freak.

You hail from here

College, teenage life,

Making friends, camping,

Being with family, going on holidays.

None of it made sense to me, how could she even do this to me. Spitting out those heartbreaking words without sympathy. I'm also human! Like her! I have feelings!! I'm her daughter, she should understand!! I don't care anymore. Nothing would ever make me quit what I love, the world needs my talent- yes, the same world that is against me now!

TO BE CONTINUED.....