Lovers of the music (josh franceschi)

Chapter 1

Let start with a little about me I am 20 turning 21 in a week I am in a band
I have two brothers but sadly my oldest brother Tom killed himself a couple years ago but besides that I have Alex who I feel like saved my life because when Tom killed himself I feel into a deep depression suicidal and he was always there for me and I live with Alex and his girlfriend that's enough of me lets get started
I just got off of tour and I got home and Alex had people over so I couldn't go to sleep damn it I walked into the kitchen and I made myself a nice cup of coffee and put creamer into it and I waved to everyone in the room and smiled Alex spoke up and pointed to josh "ash this is josh" he knows I know him because he's my man crush everyday I rolled my eyes "I know he's the lead singer from you me at six" josh smiles I'm glad you know me by the way I love you..your music" I blush did he really just say he loved me lol "I'm tired as hell so yeah I am thinking about going to go to sleep goodnight" I said and put my cup of coffee down and walked up stairs and than I woke up
"Next morning "
I felt some one shaking me and it was josh he sat down on my bed
"Hey" I said hey he smiled "I want to get to know you I want to know all your darkest secrets and than i want to know your happiness moments love I want to fall so in love with you Ashley gaskarth"
I smiled and shook my hand yes
"Josh please don't leave me alone after I tell you please" never was all he said I took a deep breath "umm I guess I'll start with the good umm there was this one time I was in high school actually it was my prom my mom was out of town my big brothers Tom and Alex helped me with getting ready I wore a blue dress it was short in the front and long in the back my brothers and I had to look up how to do my eye makeup so yeah we spent most of the time to do it that was the last time I saw tom, umm there was on time before my brother passed he took Alex and I to New York that was super fun okay now for the bad I'm like pretty sure you'll leave this part always makes people leave me but when I was 16 right after prom actually that night my boyfriend of 2 years slept with my best friend so I decided to go home I knew Alex was at jacks house when I got home I called out for Tom he didn't answer so I decided to go to his room and I saw him not breathing he was dead he killed himself" I looked away from josh he put his hand under my chin "I love you so much I love you more I'll help you I'll always be there for you" and than he leaned in a kissed me so softly I have a feeling I'm going to stick around