MALYSHKA

Chapter Six

Anastasia's nightmare 

Anastasia P.O.V

The pain of losing my friend, my family's trust, and the person closest to me was like a heavy weight on my chest, suffocating me with every breath. The betrayal and heartbreak I experienced at such a young age left me feeling hollow, like a shell of my former self. The grief of losing someone so dear to me consumed me, leaving me drowning in a sea of sorrow and despair.

As time passed, the darkness within me grew, swallowing up any flicker of hope or happiness that dared to surface. The constant thoughts of ending my own life became a twisted comfort, a way to escape the never-ending torment in my mind. The deafening noise in my head echoed with self-doubt, self-loathing, and a deep sense of worthlessness.

Years of tears have stained my cheeks, leaving behind a trail of pain and sadness that seems to have no end in sight. The loneliness I feel is like a heavy cloak, weighing me down with its suffocating embrace. The lack of love and trust from those around me cuts deep, leaving me feeling like I am unworthy of any kind of affection or understanding.

The ache in my heart is a constant reminder of the losses I have endured, a reminder that I am broken and damaged beyond repair. The emptiness inside me is a void that cannot be filled, a void that threatens to consume me whole. And as I navigate through the darkness that surrounds me, I cling to the faint glimmer of hope that someday, somehow, I will find a way to heal and find peace within myself.

But for now, I am lost in a sea of pain and sorrow, struggling to find my way back to the light. The scars of betrayal and heartbreak run deep, leaving me wounded and vulnerable. The weight of my grief is a burden I carry with me every day, a burden that threatens to crush me under its immense pressure.

Yet, amidst the darkness, there is a small spark of resilience within me, a flicker of strength that refuses to be extinguished. I hold onto this tiny flame of hope, knowing that it is the only thing keeping me from completely falling apart. I cling to the belief that one day, I will emerge from the shadows and find a way to heal the wounds that have been inflicted upon my soul.

I may be broken, but I am not beyond repair. I may be lost, but I am not *without hope. And as I continue to navigate through the pain and sorrow that surrounds me, I hold onto the belief that one day, I will find a way to piece myself back together and emerge stronger than before. Until then, I will continue to fight against the darkness, knowing that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, waiting to guide me home.

And that light was Leonid and Valik, but mostly it was Leonid, but just remembering what I done breaks me, when I finally found hope, I pushed the hope away, I am so foolish, I hate myself, I wish I can erase myself from the world, I want to die...

I woke up abruptly, shouting, "no, no, I don't want to feel the same way I used to feel." The bathroom door creaked open, revealing Leonid stepping out wrapping a towel around his waist. He heard my outburst and asked, "Are you okay?"

Seeing the tears in my eyes, he approached me and asked, "Nightmare?"

"Yeah, it was a nightmare," I replied.

"You won't believe what you were saying in your sleep," he chuckled.

"What did I say?" I inquired nervously.

"You were calling out my name," he whispered, "and asking me to hug you. What were you dreaming about?"

Blushing, I quickly stood up and said, "I need to go take a bath." As I tried to walk away, he grabbed my waist and lifted me.

"Trying to escape without answering, huh, Malyshka?" he teased, smirking.

I attempted to protest, but he held me close, gazing into my tired eyes. To change the subject, I pulled him in for a kiss, only to be surprised when he stopped me.

"Wait," he said softly, "I want to know what's been bothering you. You can talk to me, you know."

I sighed, feeling the weight of my emotions pressing down on me. "It's just... I keep having these nightmares about my past, about the pain and hurt I used to feel. I don't want to go back to that place, Leonid. I don't want to feel that way again."

He held me tighter, his warmth enveloping me. "You don't have to go back there, Malyshka. You're safe now, with me. I'll always be here to protect you, to love you."

Tears welled up in my eyes as I buried my face in his chest, feeling his steady heartbeat beneath my cheek. "Thank you, Leonid. I don't know what I would do without you."

He kissed the top of my head, his voice filled with tenderness. "You'll never have to find out, my love. I'll always be here for you, no matter what." And in that moment, as we stood in each other's arms, I knew that I was truly home.

may this warmth from Leonid never change...

-End of chapter six

hello guys I am sorry that this chapter is short but I made sure that I upload a new chapter today so I wrote it after I finished some business... 

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