𝐈𝐍 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐂𝐇 Dylan agrees to meet up with her childhood best friend's band, and they discover she's just what they need to be complete. But the band isn't the only thing that Dylan makes whole.
Valentine's Day. Soon enough my excuse to not leave Kane wouldn't work anymore and I'd actually have to go through with it. I didn't know if I wanted to.
For the past week, he'd been really nice. Maybe it was because of the upcoming holiday, or maybe he'd finally got his shit together. I couldn't tell, and that scared me. I didn't wanna leave him if he was actually improving, but I also didn't wanna get my hopes up in case he was still the same, mean boyfriend.
I went to his house, no gift. I'd asked him if he wanted anything, he said no, said that guys receiving Valentine's presents was 'too feminine'. I didn't like that. Didn't like that he acted like femininity was a bad thing. Didn't like that he saw emotional things as 'girly'. It felt misogynistic.
We sat in his bed. He'd gotten me a teddy bear and red roses. I'd never liked red roses, always thought they were too cliché, too easy. Of course I'd said that to him before. Told him my favourite flowers were orchids. He didn't remember, though. Why would he? It's not like I was his girlfriend or anything.
"Romantic day, hm?" He asked, pulling me closer to him.
"Yeah," I said, "Super romantic."
"Parents aren't home."
"Because they're on a date."
That was meant to be a dig at him, criticising him for not taking me out, but I don't think he caught on. If he did, he didn't care.
"Don't you think we've waited long enough for a good moment? This is good."
I sighed. I didn't want to.
"I don't know, Kane."
"Oh, Dyl. Come on. You owe me this much after two years. I mean, you didn't get me a gift. Maybe this could be my gift."
"You said you didn't want a gift."
"Yeah, cause it'd be a bit gay of me to receive shit like flowers or chocolate or teddy bears. But sex, that's different. It's earned, surely."
"I guess."
I suddenly felt guilty for not getting him a gift. Maybe I should make it up to him. I was leaving him soon anyway, I could at least give him this before breaking up with him.
"So, what do you say?"
"Fine."
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
I left not long after that. I got lucky, he only lasted about five minutes. Still, it might've been the worst five minutes of my life. It was painful. When I told him it hurt, he told me I'd get used to it. I probably would have if he'd lasted longer, but of course he didn't. Typical of a man to beg for sex then not even make you cum.
I decided to go straight to George's house, figuring he had no other plans. I heard laughing from the inside as soon as I got to the front door, kind of regretting my decisions. Would Matty answer Adam be there? They were the only two I'd told about my decision to leave. Would they be mad about what I'd done?
I honestly felt like I couldn't leave him now. He'd took my virginity, if five minutes even counted, and now I was just meant to leave? I'd made a huge mistake, and all I wanted was to talk to George about it. But now I couldn't. Not with the other three there. Not with Matty there.
Still, I knocked on the door, hoping that spending some time with the band would at least help me stop feeling so depressed. George answered it, seeming surprised to see me considering the date.
"Aren't you meant to be spending today with dickhead?" He asked, letting me in. We walked into the living room and I sat on the floor, having no space on the couch
"I just came from his house," I said.
"His house?" Ross asked, "He didn't take you on, like, a date or anything?"
I shrugged. "Didn't need it. Still a special day, I guess."
"You guess?" George asked. He seemed mad, mad that Kane hadn't done anything special. It was fair enough, I was mad too, but I didn't want George going off about it like always.
"Yeah, it was a nice day. Just leave it."
"Alright."
The boys managed to get back to their conversation eventually, but I couldn't focus. I'd let Kane take my virginity. Just a few hours ago I was excited to have the day over with so I could start planning our break up. I couldn't now. I'd fucked everything up for myself. Why would I have sex with him then leave him soon after? I'd look like an asshole.
"I feel sick," I whispered, before getting up and walking quickly to George's bathroom. I knelt down in front of the toilet, knowing I wasn't gonna throw up, but still feeling that out in my stomach.
I felt a presence in the doorway, looking up to see Ross. He smiled and I smiled back, but he could tell it was fake. I could see it in his eyes. He walked into the bathroom, shutting the door and kneeling next to me.
"What's gone on, Dyl?" He asked.
"You can't tell George." He sighed but nodded. "I was meant to leave Kane after today. I was planning to do it within the next, like, week."
"Why can't I tell George that? Pretty sure he'd be buzzing to hear you're leaving Kane."
"But I'm not. Not now."
"Why not? Has he gotten better?"
I shook my head. "We, um- I gave him something. Something I can't take back. I can't leave him with it. It's like there's more of a bond there now. I can't just go after giving him my- You know."
"I understand where you're coming from, Dylan, I'm not gonna sit here and try and force you out of a relationship. Still, just because you've given him your virginity doesn't mean you can't leave him. Look at us guys, none of us are with the girls we lost it to. It's something special, yeah, but if the person isn't special to you, don't fuss too much. One day you'll find a guy to give yourself to. Even if it's not your first time, it'll surely be more special than you and Kane. I mean, did you even..."
"Ew, Ross!"
I laughed a little, not caring about his vulgar joke. It cheered me up a bit.
"Sorry, sorry! But you get me, right? It doesn't have to be as deep as you're making it."
"I guess. I'll think about what you've said, I just don't think I'll be able to do it."
"That's okay. You know we're always here if you do or if you don't. No matter what, we're your friends. Don't make yourself sick over this."
