you are a hazy memory
a contemplative fantasy,
a unreachable dream,
long lost of what was
and what could've been
when my heart strings
attempt to pull after you,
realism smiles sinisterly
with rotten, canine like teeth
ripping my strings to shreds
its breath smells sorrowful
with remnants of dead desires
on its black tongue from people
no longer believing in fairytales
or the pretty night star
idealism weeps and hugs me
it whispers soothingly to me
it tells me everything will be okay
everyday i am grieving
over unfulfilled wishes,
and with ambivalence,
i loathe u
you are the ocean,
seashells and beige sand
you whisper in my ear in
the form of gentle winds
you are the ocean,
with raging storms
you pull me out of shores
making me want more
wherever i am, everywhere i go
sea salt and waves are lingering
on my tongue, unwillingly
scrunching my face up,
making my heart pang
and with my scraped tongue,
i hate the aftertaste of you
i gargle mouthwash,
brush my tongue till it bleeds,
let my mouth burn and sting
hoping that remains of you will leave
then i walk out my house,
stepping my foot forward,
cruelly falling, drowning
in the familiarity of you
with corroded anchors,
rusted by the acidity of you,
my ankles are burdened,
bruised and bleeding
just because someone happened
to laugh at something,
and my love,
they sounded just like you
i miss u
