Mists of Time | Bill Kaulitz

˚ʚ Between Goodbyes and New Beginnings ɞ˚

Your P.O.V:

I lay in bed scrolling through my photos deleting useless screenshots and other stuff trying to make some room for the clips I need for an edit of Bill that I'm making. As I'm continuously scrolling I see old memories from when I was still in high school. Silly videos of me and friends doing TikTok dances or trying out some stupid thing we saw online. I laugh to myself reminiscing about those times.

As much as I hated school, I actually wish I was going back this upcoming semester. It's so crazy to think that in just one month, I'll be starting university. By chance, I somehow managed to get into THE TOP PERFORMING ARTS SCHOOL, JULLIUARD!!! For my whole life, I've loved the preforming arts. My mom says that I get my passion from my grandma. She was a really famous actress back in her day and she was the main reason why I decided to try acting first but I soon found out that acting just wasn't something that I was all that interested in.

In time, I found that my true passion was singing. I just love how expressive it is and how it allows me to release my emotions and how free I feel. That's why I decided to attend a preforming arts school. I know it's a risk but I'm willing to take it and run with it as far as I can. I'm just about willing to do anything I can to make my dream come true of being a singer professionally. Just like Bill Kaulitz.

I look up to his whole career soooo much. He's the one that gives me the motivation to chase my dreams and once I have them, to never let them go. Him and the band and their music have honestly helped me so much in ways unimaginable and I just hope to have the opportunity to be able to do the same thing for someone else.

I keep scrolling through my camera roll and soon, I come across a family photo of me, mom, my sister and... dad from 2 years ago. The last picture we ever took all together.

I pause looking at the picture feeling the nostalgia from it and this sense of confusion as we never really figured out what had happened to dad. He just vanished one day as if he never existed. Word spread immediately in our town and soon search parties were gathered but no one could find any clue or trace as to where he might've gone. This continued for about 10 weeks before everyone slowly lost hope and tried to break the news that he probably won't ever come back home. We would not be taking that for an answer though.

We continued searching for a year after he went missing until we started to believe what everyone else had been telling us for months. It hurt not having any closure but we just had to start accepting the fact that he was probably gone forever. I quickly close my camera roll trying to avoid myself from getting emotional. As I try to think of ways to get my mind off of it, I decide that I'm going to go walk around the city. I honestly really enjoy this since it's just such a good way for me to feel at ease and relaxed.

I quickly change from my pj's into a comfy but cute outfit and grab my Airpods and my phone. As I head downstairs I notice mom in the kitchen making food and I tell her,

"Hey, I'm heading out right now. I'll be home soon." 

She replies,

"Alright darling, just be safe and make sure you're home in time for lunch. Je t'aime. (I love you)"

I shout,

"Ok! Je t'aime aussi (I love you too) and I promise I will be."

Before I'm able to head for the door, my little sister randomly comes into the kitchen looking as if she just woke up since her hair was like a bird's nest and says whiningly,

"Mommmm!! how come Y/N always gets to go out by herself and I can only go out if you're around or a grown up is?"

My mom then says,

"That's because you're only 13 years old and your sister is going to be 18 in a couple of months."

She then pauses before saying in a sing songy kind of voice,

"My little baby is going to be an adult now. I still remember when you were Y/S/N age. You were so happy to finally be a teenager and able to do more things by yourself but look at you now, you've grown to be a strong and independent woman."

My mom starts to tear up a little bit and I immediately go to hug her. I say,

"I love you guys so much and I don't know how I'm going to manage being so far away from you."

I then go to hug Y/S/N but she starts to back up and gives me a huge stink eye so, I quickly get her in a head lock and start ruffling around her already pretty messy hair. She looks at me annoyed but she has the biggest smile on her face regardless. I look down at my phone quickly and say,

"Ok, I've got to start going now before it gets dark. I'll call you when I'm on my way back. Je t'aime!"

I then hear my mom and Y/S/N say,

"Je t'aime aussi"

I wave them both goodbye and put my Airpods in before I shut the door.

(First chapter done!! 😁😁 Please lmk any thoughts about it)

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