ik hou wel van je ( Joost Klein)

Part 4

As we hopped in the car I could feel him place his hand on my waist then quickly letting go. A warmth came over my cheeks and instead of just turning away I quickly place my hand on them, it must have looked wired because he turn to me with a confused look on his face. "Are you okay?" I smiled "Yes! Of course I am haha" he started laughing I let out a laugh or two myself "why did I make you blush?" All of a sudden my heart started pounding in my chest, holy shit. "Haha you wish" came out of me all of a sudden, did that sound rude? "Ohh okay sure sweetheart". This time instead of aggressively hitting my face trying to cover up the fact I was blushing I swiftly turned away. He did too. 

The car started and I faced him again. "So where are we going?" he turned back around, in the dim light I could also see his cheeks a blush pink, funny. he smile is so widely attractive "sushi restaurant, do you like sushi?" I smiled quickly "I love it! Who doesn't!?" I laugh.

My mom didn't, she hated it. I never really got to experience going out to eat sushi when I was younger. This left me out of things sometimes when my friends would talk about it so I usually lied about it just basing my answers off of the ones my friends had. When she passed away I tried it out for the first time, though I did feel bad eating it knowing my mother always told me not to. I loved her and she was really all I had until I was 17 when she passed away, I won't be bringing that up tonight I thought.

The car drive was only another ten minutes and in those ten minutes Joost and I talked about our favourite type of sushi, wired but it wasn't awkward, it was like meeting up with an old friend you hadn't seen in years.

"Here we are! This is my favourite place to go get sushi and the staff know me well so I got a more private place to sit. If you're okay with that!" He said while slowly turning to open the door. "Oh you didn't have to but thanks". He had ran to my side of the door and opened it for me "my pleasure" he said with a happy tone "you're such a gentleman" I laughed as I placed my hand on his. "Only for you sweetheart" I let out a giggle and I exited the car. But my heart started to pound in my chest. "Hallo! leuk je te zien Joost" (hello! Nice seeing you Joost) I nodded as he greeted them back. "Yep so can we get those two seats at the back?" "Absolutely" they said walking us over to our seat, no one was really here yet though it was only 6:48 pm. 

We sat down and started talking. "So enough about me, what do you do other then boring history" I scoffed "your right its really boring I'm thinking of dropping out actually" his eyes widened and he leaned in closer to me "why?" "I- nah it's so embarrassing" "haha its not embarrassing you can talk to me" I stared into his eyes ice blue like mine, he grinned and I looked away. "Fine. I do song writing in my free time, I have actually written for some Dutch musicians" "Oh my god that's so cool who have you written for then?" "Glennis Grace". "Fuck she's good she preformed for Netherlands in 2005 did you know that?" I crossed my arms "nope I don't watch the Eurovision" "you not cool then. Maybe you could write a song with me" "haha absolutely, not" "Oh". We laughed until our food arrived.

"Yeah so then me and Mia-" "can you go to the bathroom?" I looked up from my sushi he was looking directly at the window "why? What's wrong?" "Look you know how after the Eurovision I kinda went 'famous'" "yea Mia told me." I stopped chewing my food he looked really concerned "cameras have been following me everywhere now and that's why I had to pick you up in the black car" everything started making sense "Look just go in there for five minutes and then you can come out, I'm sorry" "no problem" when walking off  Joost grabbed my hand "I'm really sorry" "I know" I said walking off with a smile.

I spent thirty minutes in that bathroom waiting for him to text me when to come out, I was getting quite sick off it. 

'Hey you can come out now, I'm sorry' I read the message and walked back out. We finished our meal in silence and he paid for the bill.

 "This is not how it was meant to be Julie" I turned around, it was now 8:30pm and no one was really on the road so Joost decided to walk me back to my apartment. We were about five minutes way from my apartment.

 "Joost look I know your sorry about what happened tonight but if this is going to continue like this" I waved my hands around us "I don't know if I want to meet up anymore, you clearly not ready to put any sort of friendship relationship out to the public yet and I understand. But I really don't want to sitting in a fucking bathroom every time we go out because you want to keep this private" I closed my eyes I could feel tears running down my face, I wiped them away. "I-I'm trying and I want this to make you happy too so if it doesn't I think we shouldn't go any further with this" he smiled but I could see tears forming in his eyes. "Okay this has been a really good experience " I beamed exempting the tears falling down my face. He started to cry too and it hurt it hurt so bad seeing him cry but this was for the best, right. "Okay, may I?' "What?" I was so confused. He leaned into kiss me and our lips touched, his were warm and soft. He pulled away, I stood there in shock even more tears streaming from my eyes "it really has been the best two days of my life Julie thank you". He turned around and started walking off. I didn't do anything as he walked further away I could here soft sobbing coming from the distance. 

I'm sorry too. I'm really sorry 

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A/n 

Ofc  writing this got me crying! Anyway hope you enjoyed!! Sorry for the end bit 

P.s THIS IS NOT END OF THE STORY! XD ❤️