Shadow Within Beauty -- A Poetry Book

Addict

Trapped by my own will, straying away from faith due to my ignorance and sinful nature...

I wouldn't be surprised if God had turned away, just as I did.

The chains of deception bound me in a dark cell guarded by the Devil itself and its demons.

There is only one way to escape; one solution to fix all problems, one key to all answers.

I ask for help; and I'm given a path to follow. Yet I've yet chosen to take it. Why? Because I am a fool.

The desire to scream burns within my lungs, the holding of it killing me from the inside.

Yet, I keep falling for it. Over and over. It feels as if I'm searching for happiness, that one feeling of pleasurable peace... yet it only drags me further down.

The addiction is so bad that it's even hard to portray it through words.

It's leading me closer and closer towards Hell.

I wish to be free of these chains; to pull my head out of the sand and face reality, to put an end to this vicious cycle.

But it seems as if I already sealed my fate several months prior, when this whole parade of despair, caused by a single action, began.

Once I start...

              I can't stop.