Ever since high school felix only liked one boy and that was unexpectedly his bully hyunjin. Hyunjin was a fuck boy who will fuck anyone he can get his hands on boys or girls.After 4 years of felix not seeing hyunjin he sees him again with a boy tha...
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Hyunjin pov
I walked out of the bathroom were Felix was and I went to my locker to take some of the books out my bag. After that I heard the bell ring for next class and I didn't want to go to my next class. 'Maybe I can ask the guys if they want to skip class with me' I took out my phone and texted the group chat but all of them care about school to much. 'Well I guess I'm skipping class by myself'. I took my bag and I left the the school,then I saw Felix walking probably back home. I had the chance to 'bother' him again but I didn't want to.
-time skip- When I made it back home to my big lonely house with went up to my room and changed my clothes
Hyunjin's room
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Hyunjin's outfit
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After I got changed I went to the table in my room were all the art supplies are. I opened my sketchbook and I started drawing. The more I keep drawing the more I was thinking about Felix. His name was on my mind in replay when I was drawing and then I realized I was drawing....
Him 'Why do I keep thinking about you! And only you!' I threw the sketchbook on the floor and plopped my head on my desk. One single tear went out my left eye(I don't know if this it true but I heard if you first cry out of your left eye it means true sadness) " why am I crying over you!"I yelled and I started crying in my desk then I heard my phone ring. It was Chan,so I wiped my tears away and answered the call
Hyunjin Hey Chan what's up? Chan Oh nothing much I was just wondering on how your doing Hyunjin Oh I'm doing just fine I was just getting sick of school Chan I get that.well I just wanted to see if you were ok Hyunjin Ok thanks man I will see you tomorrow Chan See you tomorrow Hyunjin Bye Chan Bye I hung up the phone and went to my bed,I got under the covers and look at my phone. I look d at instagram and then I saw a post from.....Felix ,and I scrolled down to see the photo he posted
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littleangelix:sleepover with quokkaboy! 1,000,000 likes ❤️ 💭 It looked like an old photo of him and Han together. 'That should have been with me...wait what am I saying?!?!'.I got off of instagram and scrolled on TikTok for a bit until I passed out.
-time skip- I woke up at 11pm and I tried to go back to sleep but I couldn't. "I guess I will just draw again" I got up from my bed and picked up my sketchbook off the floor and back on my desk. I sat in my chair and grabbed my pencil,and started sketching. I drew some flowers as always but I was still thinking about Felix when I was drawing and I started to cry again. I started to sob on my drawing,tears soaked onto the page. Contentwarning :talk of depression and suicidal thoughts! I have always felt sadness in my life I never felt happy. Even if I'm with my friends or my family I never felt happy. My parents to me to a therapist and I got diagnosed with depression. Most of the time I will lock myself in my room for hours at a time sometimes even days. I have thought of killing myself always crossed my mind, and one day I tried to do it but Chan found me just in time. Now every day form that day forward he will always face time me or call me to see if I'm ok.
My therapist gave me his number so I can text him or call him if I need him. I grabbed my phone and started to to call him
Suga Hey hyunjin are you ok? Hyunjin No im not ok *sobs* Suga Ok hyunjin calm down ok take some deep breaths. I took some deep breaths and started talking to him again Hyunjin I felt like killing my self again but I called you instead Suga That's good hyunjin,but why? Hyunjin I can't stop thinking about him Suga Oh.....it's him again well do you want to talk about it? I have mentioned him(Felix) to my therapist multiple times so he is used to this by now Hyunjin No i don't ....i just don't want to think about him anymore Suga You will never stop thinking about someone you love hyunjin. Hyunjin I know but he will never like me....all the things i have done to him,said to him.....he will never want to date me or even want to be my boyfriend Suga You never know hyunjin,he might love you back.how about you first try talking to him and become his friend. Hyunjin Ok I will try that tomorrow. Thanks Suga Suga Your welcome hyunjin I will see you tomorrow for therapy He hung up the phone and then I got a call from my dad
Dad
Dad Hyunjin how are you doing today? I just wanted to tell you that we are moving! Pack your stuff we're moving to Japan! Me But dad I have therapy tomorrow? And why so soon? Dad You will go to therapy as normal tomorrow And after that you will be going to Japan Hyunjin What about school? Dad No school tomorrow for you And no more questions get some sleep you have a long day ahead of you. Hyunjin Ok night dad Dad Good night hyunjin
I have been updating every day this week But next week is my final so no updates Have a good day/evening/night 🩷
