Toxic heart

Regret

The next morning I wake up to the sound of my phone, again?!! I will kill that alarm if it gos of one more time. I pick up my phone and throw it across the room. It shatters and falls to the ground, I groan and decide to check on my phone. 'Fuck' I cuss when I see what state my phone is in. I see that the alarm was Ashley calling me 27 times 'shit, fuck shit sick shit' I mutter and try to unpick my phone trough the screen.

I immediately try to call ash. After 2 seconds she picks up the phone. 'WHAT the fuck do you think you're doing?!' She yells through the phone. 'I'm so sorry Ash, I was so tired and just really wanted to go home. I'm sorry I left you I feel really bad' I say, half of it isn't true but alright. 'You lying cunt, I saw you in the kitchen with that guy Lewis. And after you practically ran out the door' she scoffs. Fuck.

'Shit I'm sorry, you're right. Lewis was talking all bulshit and I had enough and left' I lie. 'Okay Liv, but you have to tell me so I can come with you the next time. We don't lie to each other remember?' She says. Guilt settles in my stomach. She doesn't even know half of my secrets.

'I know I'm sorry ash, but enough about me. TELL ME how was it with garickkkkk?' I say excitedly. 'hihihi it was the best he kissed me!!!! ARGHH and then he told me he wanted to take me out!!!!' She screams trough the speaker. I almost slam my phone in the wall again but I don't. 'YESS I knew it you to are perfect together, I'm so fk happy for you!!' I squeak.
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One hour later I'm seated behind my desk. Doing my homework and preparing for my tests next week. I'm playing music but I just can't concentrate, my mind is just going back to last night with him so close to me. His cologne hitting my nose. His warm breath against my neck. His hands on either side of my body. I just can't.

'Fuck this' I say to myself and get up grab my jacket and leave my room. I walk to the nearest store and enter the store. I'm in the mood for Oreo's and hot choco. Yess that will help me in this moment.

I am looking in the for the Oreos when I feel somebody watching me. I slightly turn around and see the son of a bitch himself standing there with a girl at his side. She's pretty, long blonde hair flat stomach and pretty long legs. I spin around and almost run to the opposite ail to spy on them.

They are looking at the sodas he grabs a bottle of Coca Cola and she grabs Fanta. They're talking about the party from last night. 'Did you have fun last night?' She asks as she seductively looks trew here lashes. He doesn't seem affected and says 'yeah it was fun' dryly. I relais what the flip is doing and decide to go pay.

Of course on the exact same time. Lewis decides to head to the cashier to. I stand in line and wait for my turn when I feel a hot stair in the back of my head. It's Lewis. I just feel it. I doubt if I should glance back to see if it is really him. But curiosity hits me and I decide to just turn around. And as expected he stand there smirking his face of. I scoff and turn around again when I hear the pretty girl ask who I am at Lewis.

The line moves and I step forward not noticing that an old lady had  sat her basket full of groceries on the floor. I again stumble over the basket and fall. On that moment 2 strong arms catch me and pull me back to my feet. 'You should really go and watch where you're going princess, I won't be here every time you fall' he whispers in my ear so the other girl won't hear.

I go red and a shiver is sent through my whole body. I push him away so I can pay and run to my bed. I pay for my groceries and I see Lewis with a big ass smirk on his face as he watches me. Something makes me feel really aware of myself when he is watching. And I absolutely fucking hate it. I take my bag full of crap and walk out of the store, I'm really the most dumb ass person I have ever seen. Finally being back at my dorm I search for my keys and find a small note. No he wouldn't. I open the note and it says