THE SHADOW'S OBSESSION

The Kiss

What is it? Is it nervousness? Is it excitement? Am I intimidated, or may I be petrified? Or.. Am I just awestruck at how handsome he is?

I don't know.. I really don't know. But I'm transfixed. I don't know for what reasons or for how long I am sitting here, shamelessly staring more like glaring at him. RYAN FUCKING MALHOTRA. Okay, let's just envision for a minute, for one whole long year, I was under the careful examination that some filthy looking indecent-portly-pathetic-fucking-miserable bastard, would be my stalker and the moment I will know who he is, will be his last day. (Ergh, not really may be.. but I would have made sure somehow). But now, imagine my surprise, when the one I kind of suspect as my stalker is dressed up in three piece suit, looking cruelly beautiful and devilish hot with a sinful physique and being some foolishly rich CEO who for sure has better jobs to do than be my stalker!! Ughhh... it doesn't make any sense. I swear to God. It doesn't really. Doesn't matter how beautiful or handsome or rich he is, but the fact that I felt he could be my stalker is making me sick to my stomach. Even my reading preferences, have the stalker romance trope at the bottom...

But, even when now I look at him, all I could make out was that he is giving his speech about something that's obviously important, yet to be honest? I haven't heard even a single word he has said till now, obviously I couldn't as my entire focus was mostly on his lips.. the way they are moving, the way his hands are moving while explaining, his eyes that darken everytime they come in contact with mine and that stupidly sexy smirk, mostly smirking at me as if he has just won the world or something. No No No... There has to be something wrong in the matrix, but what could-

"AGARWALLLLLLL!!" Dixit whisper-yells
"WHAT!? WHY ARE YOU SHOUTING?" I reply.
"DID YOU EVEN LISTEN WHAT HE SAID???". She counter attacks. I couldn't reply because for sure I wasn't.
"EXACTLYYYY! THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT AND HENCE ...!" She gave me a cheeky-grin which made me more irritated because nothing is making sense and I am loosing my mind.

Me: "What now??? Yeah, I wasn't paying attention, so what? And why are you smiling like an idiot!???", my response too rude even for my liking.
Dixit: "Maya? Are you alright? What happened?"

Shit. Shit. Shit. I am really acting out of my character if Dixit has to call me by my first name. God!! I scrunched up my nose and looked at her with a guilty look..
Me: "Umm-"
Dixit: "Really Maya, what is going on? If you don't share I won't understand, I am here but you have to let me in to know what's happening! Is about what happened today with Ryan? You are not even sure if that was Ryan!"

I know Dixit I know. Those eyes. Those fucking eyes will haunt me forever. And I forgot sure know, that, that was him, Ryan. But I don't say. I am not drawing any conclusion until I find that out myself. I was just about to bluff, when she again said, "I'm fucking serious Maya." Taking a deep breath, I sigh.

Me: "I'm fine Dixit. And I'm serious. It's just the incident made me more confused than I was before. Nothing makes sense anymore. I don't even know why I'm here amidst all of these. I did everything to forget and move on with life but... But I feel stucked. And as for Ryan-" . I looked at him, he was talking to Shaurya, and the latter seemed as if someone just snatched his summer holidays away from him.
Me: "And as for Ryan, I don't know. I did feel it was him, but it's not that. It's more than that. I can't explain, but there's something Dixit..."
Dixit: "Okay, may be we need to talk about it more, do you want to go somewhere else?"
Me: "No no no. It's fine. I just got a little carried away. I'm fine now. Seeeeee" And then, I gave her the most reassuring pretentious smile I could and hoped she would buy it. And may be she did because she smiled back.
Me: "Now, tell me, why were you smiling like an idiot before?"
Dixit: "I'm not sure if you would be happy or not, but Ryan just announced that they would be staying here and both Ryan and Shaurya will be taking few of our classes."