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Mental Health Day

A/N: The art above is mine, I drew it due to how I've been feeling, and I think others can relate to be honest.

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Denki ofc

I have been feeling really down lately.. I feel like I can't even get out of bed. It's awful. I also have been overthinking a lot, especially about Kat. I feel so bad for thinking this way, but I can't help but feel he doesn't want me anymore.

'Am I not enough?' 'Do I need to look better?' 'What if he actually hates me?' 'What if I'm not actually his type?' 'Maybe I should speak less.' 'Maybe I should do better.' Are the thoughts I have constantly anymore.

I'm laying in bed right now, I know I'm gonna be late for school, but I just can't get up, I don't have any motivation for it. Then, Kats walked in, "Baby doll, you need to get up." He said sternly, I just shook my head, and I think he could see why I wouldn't get up. My eyes were all red and puffy, I was curled up, and there were small tears in my eyes.

"Babe, what's wrong?" He asked gently, sitting next to me, "i-i.. i can't.." he looked confused and petted my head, "Can't what?" I teared up more, "a-anything.. i-i don't wanna get up.. i-i wanna sleep, cry, and I haven't eaten in 3 days i-i-. " I broke into sobs and curled into my blanket more.

I felt him pull me up and hug me, to which I hugged back immediately, crying into his chest as he rubbed my back. "Shh.. it's ok baby, it's ok.. here, how bout we take a mental health day, hm?" He's never missed a day of school, so immediately I felt extremely guilty, so I shook my head.

"I-i don't want y-you to miss school, t-that'd be so selfish i-" He cut me off, "no, I'm willing to miss one day if it means I get to make sure you're ok." I finally nodded, though I still felt really guilty, I knew he wasn't gonna budge. He's such a hard head, but in a good way.

He texted Kiri that we'd be missing class and to let Aizawa know. "Alright, now I'm gonna make you some breakfast, ok?" I nodded again. My throat hurts from crying, so I was trying not to speak. He nodded and went to make me breakfast, I wanted to tell him how I was feeling and the overthinking, but I was nervous. I didn't want him mad at me.

Soon, he came back with pancakes, bacon, and orange juice, I sat up because it looked fucking amazing. He set the food on my lap and put my drink on the nightstand, I started eating slowly, to not make myself sick. After I was done, he asked, "Is there anything you wanna talk about? How have you been feeling? I'm here for you, baby."

I slowly nodded and started explaining how I've been feeling and how much overthinking I've been doing. He just listened as I talked, and I told him how I've been doubting myself in our relationship. He didn't look mad. If anything, he looked sad. Once I was done explaining, he pulled me into a tight hug.

"Denki, I love you more than I could love anything in this damn world. You are the reason I know what love feels like and is. I would never want or need anyone other than you. You are the love of my life, and once we're out of this hellhole with all these idiots, I want to marry and mark you, and after, we'd have the cutest, strongest, most badass pups. Denki Kaminari, I promise you, I will always, always, love you."

I was in tears by the time he was done, I jumped on him and hugged him tightly, I never wanted this moment to end, I love him so much. After a while, I finally calmed down again, and we layed down and cuddled.

He turned on the TV and turned on Hunchback of Notre Dame. It's been my favorite movie since I was a kid, mostly because it gave me hope I could escape that awful foster home and escape him. But now.. I don't need to escape, I have my alpha, my friends, my moms, and everything I could ever need.

I fell asleep about halfway through the movie, not for long though, because I jumped awake due to a nightmare, I was sweating and panting profusely.

"Hey, hey, what happened? Are you ok?" Kats held me in his arms to help me calm down. "Nightmare.." I mumbled quietly. He asked if I wanted to talk about it, to which I shook my head no. I didn't want him to know.

It was about him..

I don't want him to know about him..

He doesn't need to know about him..

"Ok, why don't we just watch that show you like? What's it called heartstopper or some shit?" I giggled at him, to which he smiled, I love it when he smiles. It's cute.

"Yeah, it's called Heartstopper."

He put on the show, and I cuddled up to him, smiling a bit, he makes me feel so safe.. I love him so much.

After a few episodes, it was lunchtime, so he ordered us some pizza and got some sodas. I was feeling a lot better now.

"Baby boy, Pepsi or Fanta?" He called out as he rummaged through my mini fridge. "Fanta, please, hun!" He hums a response and gives me my soda, sitting with me on my bed as we watched more of the show and ate.

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We were still cuddled up. We didn't move much today, but it's ok. It was nice to relax after so much stress, and spending the day with my Alpha made me the happiest ever.

I bury my face in his chest as he holds me in his arms, and I yawn. "Are you tired, omega..?" I nod, and he smiles a little, "then go to sleep, baby.."

I nod again before looking up into his ruby eyes, him gazing into my honey colored ones. "Thank you, Kats.. for everything.." I smile a bit.

"Babe, no matter what, I'll be here for you, I love you so much."

"I love you too.." Then we drift off into sleep, I didn't have a nightmare. It was finally a peaceful dream.

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A/N: I'm so sorry for the shorter chapters. I've been really busy, I know some of you don't mind, but I still apologize. I love you all, and remember, stay hydrated, eat a meal, go outside for at least 25 minutes, vitamin D (which the sun gives the body)  helps with depression, you matter, you are loved, you are beautiful/handsome/other.

YOU ARE KENOUGH